Why do I care what people think so much? Am I crazy?
I don’t know why, but lately I’ve been looking back at past experiences and just cringing. A lot of it involved alcohol, which I own, but there was also a period in my life when I had a tumor in my neck and I genuinely felt off….like my behavior wasn’t fully “me” at the time. Mostly my coworkers had to see a nervous person.
I’m trying to give myself grace, but I can’t help thinking about all the people I crossed paths with back then and worrying they think I’m crazy. And when I drink too much, I definitely act like… a drunk, which doesn’t help. I’ve never had anything bad happen but I’m talking like getting emotional, mad at people who were rude, and just idk.
I’m doing Dry January right now and realizing I probably care way too much about what people think of me. Has anyone else felt this way? looking back and cringing, or worrying about how they’re perceived?
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I don’t cry, and it’s troubling me a lot.
I cannot cry, the last time I cried was when I was still a child. Even during relatives’ deaths, I could not cry, despite every other member of the family doing so. I was the only one.
And now, even when me and my lover go through terrible things, she is the only one who cries, I don’t, and it makes her feel like I don’t care enough to cry, that it doesn’t affect me nearly as much.
But it does, I do feel terrible, I do feel like crying, I feel a knot forming in my throat, a pain in my chest, I tremble and shake and god knows how I can describe it all. I do feel things, but I simply cannot cry, and I very honestly do not know the reason, but I really want to be able to cry, I want to start crying, so that I can show my feelings, and so that she no longer thinks I don’t care about her, that she is not worthy enough for me to shed a single tear over her.
I think I need a lobotomy
I'm not even kidding, I think I'm genuinely unfixable. I've done therapy for years and they've tried like every type of therapy and nothing worked. I have tons of meds but they don't work as much as they need to. My psychologists don't even fully know what's wrong with me even tho I already have multiple diagnosis. They've pretty much already given up on me.
But it's not like I'm not trying because I always am. I've been open to every kind of treatment. There so much I want in the future, it's not like I've ever given up on life or haven't wanted to get better. I do sports and like 10 other hobbies and I spend time with my family and friends and I take care of my physical health. It's not like I'm a bedrotter or something, or like I lack the will to change. But it STILL doesn't work. And then people get in my face and have the audacity to say that's it's still my fault and that I'm not trying hard enough or that I don't want to change. That's what pisses me off the most. If I do everything possible then how can it still be my fault.
They just need to lock me in a room and never let me out again or genuinely lobotomize me. I hate myself and everyone else hates me too because I break
What's something you're currently learning to be okay with
Big or small, everyone seems to be adjusting to something. I'm interested in what people are working through right now. It doesn't have to be something serious or deep - could be accepting a change in routine, learning to be comfortable with uncertainty, or just getting used to a new situation. What's something you've been trying to make peace with lately? How's that process going for you?
Is there an age to stop playing videogames
Is there an age to stop playing video games?
Sometimes I wonder if it's immature to still play Pokémon Go and other video games (COC, COD, etc.) at my age. I'm (M23) at the age where, at least on paper, I should have put aside certain passions, replacing them with more "adult" and more serious interests, but I don't want to.
People my age don't understand this and often tease me for it. To them, it's just a little game, something I should have abandoned long ago, as if growing up necessarily meant erasing what I enjoy.
I don't want to give up something that makes me feel good just because others wouldn't understand, but maybe I'm wrong and i shoud focus on other stuff?
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I’m new to the group and grateful to be here. I’m open to friendship, positive discussions, and learning from one another. Looking forward to connecting with you all.
My brain is basically a music player...
(Please do not take this seriously...its just a gimmick my brain has.. If you think its dramatic or obnoxious its a completely respectable opinion)
Yo. So uh yeah My brain plays music in some moments. its automatic i never imagien me playign music it just happens. Like my unit 2 exams ended yesterday and it played 'running up that hill' by kate bush. I dunno why it did it, probably because i watch too many movies or i just like music in general more then viewing a movie or music VIDEO...anyways i think its dope for me.
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