I feel like I'm fighting tooth and nail to avoid becoming an incel.
God, it's ridiculously hard to try to do anything other than drawing in my sketchbook all day. I feel like a piece of shit, but everything even slightly productive in the real world just gives me the jitters. If I keep at my life in the way I am, I'm actually going to become not much better than an incel. Maybe, I already am... I'm going through multiple job applications and I'm buying groceries for my parents just so I can see the sun at least once a week. Other than that, I don't really know what to do, honestly. I'm probably not going to know what to do ***after*** I get past this either.
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When people hatee i feel safe
When I was in 1st standard, students used to bully me regularly. Teachers didn’t like me either because I never listened to them. At home, my parents fought almost every day. There was shouting, anger, and tension all the time. After a while, I stopped reacting. I stopped crying. I stopped showing emotions. I told myself this is normal, this is just how life is.
After around one and a half months, I lost control of myself. My mother had cancer at that time. The doctor had prescribed two medicines before sleep: one normal tablet and one heavy tablet that makes you sleep deeply. I noticed this. One night, I hid the normal tablet. As expected, she took only the heavy one and fell asleep. My father came home late, so there was no fight that night. For the first time in a long time, I slept peacefully.
When the fighting started again on other days, I made a decision. If I couldn’t have peace at home, I would at least have peace at school.
So I changed myself on purpose. Instead of letting students bully me, I decided to give them a reason to hate me. I started talking to them disrespectfully. Sometimes I hit them intentionally, in front of others, so everyone would see. Teachers slapped
I can’t stand my parents
I'm serious, I (16M) can't stand my parents, they are too annoying, silly and clumsy, 4 years ago we moved to the house we live in now, and I had a problem in my room, my mother said it would be solved by leaving the windows open in the morning, I hate this, it's very cold and there's too much noise, I consider myself a person who likes to be quiet. But back to the subject, I've been doing this for 4 years, and nothing has improved, in fact it has only made things worse, and my parents, who are silly and clumsy keep forcing me to do it, I can't stand it anymore, sometimes I wonder how it is possible that my parents are such idiots there is more but I'm not going to bother to say it, I guess you get the point.
Update: As I have seen that many of you have not understood the post, I will try to make things clear, what I was referring to is that in these last 4 years my parents have been making the same mistake over and over again, I have made it clear to them a lot of times that leaving the window open only makes things worse but they do not listen to me, it is not that I hate my parents, not at all, but they are idiots, they act as if they know and have no idea, and no, I have never
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