Starodum Soloviy

Starodum Soloviy

@organicbear362170 · Jan 10, 2026

I'm sorry for everything I've ever said and done.

I'm laying here in bed, alone, and I just think about every shitty thing I've said to someone, or the mistakes I've made. And I'm sorry, I'm sorry for all of it. And many know im sorry, that ive grown up and changed. But they don't get that time back that I took from them. I know it's going to come back around to get me. I'm going to one day lose my family, like we all do at some point in our lives. I'm going to feel a grief and pain so profound, idk how ill cope. And I'll deserve it. I'm sorry for what I've done, for the things I've said and sometimes still say to different people. Whether it be irl or online. I'm sorry.

Starodum Soloviy

@organicbear362170 · Jan 10, 2026

People who leave you mid-sentence don’t know what they destroy.

Some people don’t leave with a fight.
They don’t even leave with a goodbye.
They leave while you are still talking.
Mid-sentence.
You are still explaining what hurt.
Still choosing your words carefully.
Still hoping this time, if you say it right, you will be understood.
And then they are gone.
Not dead.
Not angry.
Just suddenly unavailable.
I have started to realise this is how a lot of adult relationships end. Not with honesty. Not with closure. But with a quiet disappearance that feels polite on the outside and violent on the inside.
They stop replying.
They change tone.
They drift into “busy” and never come back.
You are left holding the last thing you said, rereading it, wondering if that was the moment you became too much.
There is something especially cruel about being abandoned while you are still emotionally exposed. While you are mid-story. Mid-confession. Mid-vulnerability. It teaches your nervous system that opening your mouth is dangerous. That telling the truth is how you get erased.
So you learn to edit yourself.
You soften your sentences.
You hide your needs inside jokes.
You become small so people will stay.
But they still leave.
And the worst part is not even the

Starodum Soloviy

@organicbear362170 · Jan 9, 2026

Stat Update

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