Well...
So I had my work meeting I mentioned a few times and it went ok...they gave me my final warning and it's whatever 🙄 but I think the thing that hurt the most was all the talking behind my back about me being trans...they bullied me so much I went back to boy mode there anyways and thank God I did...the lies that came out and just the stuff they said was eye opening and very hurtful. I dunno if u ever meet a trans person be nice I guess...I dunno I feel kinda hollow but like I've said I need this job so it's pick ur battles 😭 anyway I'm ok for now if anyone was following along and wondering...still not convinced I'm out of the woods cause my boss leaves March and I still feel they could walk me out with her but I'll be saving and wary until then. Love ya guys. Have a good weekend 😬
Edit- ugh I'm actually really sad about the bullying part like I know it happens but I really really hate me in boy mode and yeah I've been back in it for awhile at work it hurts and it's scary knowing how much people didn't like me when I finally felt happy and like me...I don't even feel safe going to hr and I don't have friends or access to party drugs....I guess there's edibles and bed rot. Fuuuuuuuck
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Friend of 3 years- im 16F and he's 19M Hi guys, i dont really know how to help him so im hoping i get some insight on how to act in this situation. I'll call hi
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Reached a long term goal, now I’m there I’m wondering if it’s what I really wanted.
I had been trying to land a specific job in a specific industry for a long time, it was incredibly hard to get the job I wanted and I was convinced it would make me happy.
I felt elated to get the offer, but as my start date inched closer I got gradually less excited, and now I’m at the job I don’t feel motivated or excited much, if not at all. The earning potential is great, the hours will get better etc etc, this isn’t a dead end job, I feel I should be excited now I’m finally where I want to be.
I’ve long been someone motivated by proving to myself that I’m good enough for something and I’m wondering if my motivation to break into this industry was really just to prove to myself that I’m good enough and not that I really wanted the job.
Anyone else dealt with this at all and how did you deal with it?
devastated
# devastated
my (26f) bf (21m) lied to me yesterday about some dumb stuff. his friend’s age. he got upset and he pulled his shooty thing out, and pointed it under his chin and said “i would rather die than lie to you again” and he said he did that so i knew he was serious.
i thought he was a normal regular person but i don’t think so. i know someone else in his family did something similar. he didn’t say he was going to kill himself or that he wanted to kill himself. he said he’d rather die than lie to me again and that he won’t do it again.
i told him he needs therapy but he suggested he go to a psychiatrist and perhaps an inpatient treatment. i dont know what to do. i love him so much. he has been so good to me, so gentle so kind. then this. he really went off the rails :(
listen. he has been so good to me. so kind. he’s so good to everyone so i know he wouldnt hurt me. i can see the kindness in his eyes and heart. but, it shatters me that he doesn’t like himself.
he told me he did this because i told him to prove to me that he was sorry for lying. he said he did it because he was desperate and that he wanted to show his sincerity of him willing to die before lying to me again.
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