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@angrykoala740134 · Jan 10, 2026

My friend is mean

Hi Reddit,
I recently told my friend in casual conversation about an artistic hobby I always wanted to try as a kid.
The hobby I wanted to try was too expensive for the family, so I never could.
She told me “why would you admit you are a wannabe”
I feel hurt that I opened up about something I always dreamed of doing and being brushed off like that.
It doesn’t help that she’s been an a-hole lately, so maybe that was just the cherry on top.
Does anyone have any advice on how I can let this dream go and not feel hurt by a comment like this?

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@angrykoala740134 · Jan 10, 2026

I want to go back to the „feeling nothing” stage

Hi everyone, and my English is still not perfect, I haven’t posted much since my last post added a more than a year ago „I fell in love with terminally ill girl” when I wanted to got something off my chest.
The end of my confession is something I can’t tell anyone, so I’m here…
After many I think I can call it „traumatic” events: cancer, losing my love of my life (she died almost 6 years ago and the history of it is in my post i mentioned earlier), kidnapped and raped by 3 men, assault with a knife and I just lost a spark in my eyes, I really wanted to end it and I tried but unsuccessful and I’m not going to try again, I found the another solution (please don’t take it as advise).
I started to take x@n@x, it fried my brain and my feelings and that was what I was looking for, after a few months I quit, I didn’t feel anything and it was great because I had too much negative emotions and less the good ones, I lived by the rules I’ve made up: work, collage, meeting with friends, learn how to be data analyst - as I’m now (from 6 months), the things my life was getting back on track and then the mother (like a mother for me more than my mother) of dead girl I loved died…
But
I (23F) open

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@angrykoala740134 · Jan 10, 2026

I had to perform CPR on a close family member

Three years ago, when I was 18, I lost my cousin. She stayed with us for medical reasons. We were home alone while the rest of my family was out. Around the afternoon, I was lying in my room when I heard her calling my name. When I opened the door, she was panicking, waving her hands, and saying she couldn’t breathe, begging me to call for help.
I called them immediately. She moved between rooms and eventually sat down in a chair in the living room. I stayed on the phone with the operator, explaining what was happening and giving our address, while she kept saying she couldn’t breathe.
At some point, she went quiet. I went over and saw she had passed out in the chair, her head down. The operator asked if she was breathing. I couldn’t tell, and when I said I didn’t think she was, I was instructed to move her to the floor and begin chest compressions.
I put the phone on speaker and followed the instructions, interlocking my hands and pushing down on her chest repeatedly, counting out loud. My arms burned, and time felt endless. When I finally heard sirens, responders arrived five to ten minutes later, came in through the back door, and took over.
At the hospital, we were told she had