Why do I have a bad feeling about telling a close relative about my project/something I am working on?
I have a bad experience with telling people things like my dreams, my projects, things I’m working on. I always feel like they want to sabotage me somehow.
I know what is meant to be will happen, and I know my intentions were good, so my heart should be at peace.
But I still feel like something is off.
I told some people very close to me how I truly felt and a project I’ve had going on for a long time now.
Before this, I was closed off with them. And honestly I can see why. I was mentally, physically and emotionally in a bad place. Extremely exhausted, underweight, not taking care of myself, everything.
And honestly? I’m recovering from this bad place. This college thing really destroyed me I won’t lie. I know it’s not the college but my perspective, though it is not that easy.
How can I stop worrying that I said something I shouldn’t have said?
I really feel that something is off, they were extremely supportive but I feel a sting of “I’d like her to succeed but not too much”
I’m frustrated. Irritated. I always feel like people don’t want my success. And if you tell me I am projecting, oh my God… I am anonymous on here, and I’m telling you, I really want everyone to succeed in ever
Andre Bertrand
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I will never accept my ugly appearance
Whenever I tell people that I want to get plastic surgeries they get all noooo ur so beautiful don’t believe what society says and they are actually lying through their teeth. It’s so easy to lecture about “inner beauty” or whatever bs when YOURE NOT THE ONE WHO HAS RO WAKE UP AND LOOK AT THIS FACE IN THE MIRROR EVERY MORNIGN. You’re not the one who has to wear this face everywhere you go, you’re not the one who’s being judged by it before you open your mouth and give anyone a chance to see this “inner beauty” you speak of. Like actually don’t piss me off and lie to me. It’s so easy to say whatever bullshit when you’re not the one going through life looking like some ugly hag and people treat you like a second class citizen for something you have no control over. Sucks.
As a child, I watched my father insert a tube of blood into his arm to pass a parental DNA test. I found my alleged half
I distinctly remember the tourniquette and him screaming at me to get out of the bathroom after he saw me watching him try to insert the thing in his arm. I remember the day he went to take the test he wore a sweater which he never wore before and I asked him why he was wearing it and he picked me up and threw me against a wall, he got so angry at me questioning him.
After my mom died, I found that all these years she held on to court summons for my father that looks like it has blood stains in it. I looked up the child's name on the paternity claim and found them on facebook, now an adult, and they are just a few years older than me and they look just like me.
When she was alive, it drove my mom crazy that she couldnt "prove" my father had fathered this kid and she drank herself to homelessness and death. My father is living well and just bought a 3.5 million dollar home without even having sold the home he was living in. I tried reaching out to my alleged half sister but never heard back.
I realized that i have never talked to a girl except my mom
Okay, so I guess I am too young for this subreddit (M18), but I recently realized that I have had zero female interaction in my life, leaving my mum out of that.
i thought thats ok as i always studied in a boarding school (no, teachers dont count) and i realized thats i cant talk to them
i mean it when i say that iCAN'T i mean it. It's difficult as I have no prior experience and no way to reach out.
I do no tuition whatsoever, so i cant communicate there.
i guess i have to start with online chats first.
what should i do + tips and someone to help 🙃
Why do people only stay in my life when they need something?
It feels like no one genuinely wants to be friends with me.
People come and go for their own benefit, and my absence never seems to matter.
I try to be sincere with everyone, yet I end up crying alone, wondering what I’m lacking?
What should be common at chippies but isn't?
I'm a big fan of fried eggs on chippy chips. I just wish I didn't have to be the one to do it every time I pick one up.
What other items would you like to see as regular items at a chippy?
Learning to slow down a little
Lately I’ve been trying to slow things down
and pay more attention to how I actually feel.
Less rushing, more presence.
It’s not always easy, but it feels healthier.
Anyone else trying to do the same?
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