Maelya Dufour

Maelya Dufour

@smallkoala221292 · Jan 10, 2026

I'm sorry for everything I've ever said and done.

I'm laying here in bed, alone, and I just think about every shitty thing I've said to someone, or the mistakes I've made. And I'm sorry, I'm sorry for all of it. And many know im sorry, that ive grown up and changed. But they don't get that time back that I took from them. I know it's going to come back around to get me. I'm going to one day lose my family, like we all do at some point in our lives. I'm going to feel a grief and pain so profound, idk how ill cope. And I'll deserve it. I'm sorry for what I've done, for the things I've said and sometimes still say to different people. Whether it be irl or online. I'm sorry.

Maelya Dufour

@smallkoala221292 · Jan 10, 2026

I can’t stand my parents

I'm serious, I (16M) can't stand my parents, they are too annoying, silly and clumsy, 4 years ago we moved to the house we live in now, and I had a problem in my room, my mother said it would be solved by leaving the windows open in the morning, I hate this, it's very cold and there's too much noise, I consider myself a person who likes to be quiet. But back to the subject, I've been doing this for 4 years, and nothing has improved, in fact it has only made things worse, and my parents, who are silly and clumsy keep forcing me to do it, I can't stand it anymore, sometimes I wonder how it is possible that my parents are such idiots there is more but I'm not going to bother to say it, I guess you get the point.
Update: As I have seen that many of you have not understood the post, I will try to make things clear, what I was referring to is that in these last 4 years my parents have been making the same mistake over and over again, I have made it clear to them a lot of times that leaving the window open only makes things worse but they do not listen to me, it is not that I hate my parents, not at all, but they are idiots, they act as if they know and have no idea, and no, I have never

Maelya Dufour

@smallkoala221292 · Jan 10, 2026

Am i being dramatic?

My best friend, who i go to school with, can go the whole day without seeing me at lunch time/free periods etc and just going out with other people. This lowkey upsets me a lil but js wondering am i being dramatic or would other people feel the same? I’m not going to confront or anything its ntd it’s just messing with my mind mentally 🥲🥲

Maelya Dufour

@smallkoala221292 · Jan 10, 2026

i believe my grandfather died to break my cousin and her fiance up

let me give yall a few examples as to why her fiance is the BIGGEST PIECE OF SHIT in the world.
and you tell me if im being superstitious or not.
we have a big family so bare with me.
\- he cheated on her while away at med school, and she found out through INSTAGRAM DMS of the girl sending screenshots and pictures
\- he convinced her to leave our other cousin who got ROOFIED at a bar away in an uber because he didnt fucking care i guess
\- our other cousin WITNESSED him cheating on her at a bar. told her what happened, and fiance manipulated the entire situation as to, "o everyones trying to break us up"
MIND YOU HALF OUR COUSINS GREW UP WITH FIANCE.
the list goes on I DO NOT LIKE THAT MOTHERFUCKER
anyways,
my grandfather passed yesterday evening. right when my parents were ON THE WAY to the airport to go to a wedding.
and as our other families from florida and texas gather in our town for this ENGAGEMENT PARTY.
their engagement party was supposed to be today
(mind you, I HAD TO FLY back and found the cheapest fucking flight i had ever seen in years.)
so grandpa dies, her parents and fiance's parents discuss right after wtf to do about this engagement party they threw 15 grand on
f

Maelya Dufour

@smallkoala221292 · Jan 10, 2026

Love New Wave music, old TV shows, Art, and Museums, Coffee

I love the arts, music, fashion, and anything related to movies, music, and theater and live performance. : )
I have a big heart, and I tend to get along well with those who have creative energy and open minds. Love sharing music and other art and culture. Hope to meet someone who appreciates the same!

Maelya Dufour

@smallkoala221292 · Jan 10, 2026

What is your favorite Christmas memory?

I have loved Christmas since I was a child, and for me it represents the magic of being with family, sharing with friends, having dinner together, giving each other gifts, and a lot of happiness. I remember perfectly one day when I went to the mall with my mom and she bought me the video game I wanted so much and then we ate at Wendy's...I was the happiest girl in the world that day

Maelya Dufour

@smallkoala221292 · Jan 10, 2026

Anyone remember the optimism around the Arab spring

I remember being in middle school learning about the Arab spring as it was happening and then in high school about the reasons for the protests yet I find it kinda sad how it didn’t change much. Egypt and Tunisia seem to be under a dictatorship more authoritarian, corrupt and as incompetent than the previous governments. Syria just ended(?) a civil war yet the country is in shambles and parts of the country are still in war, the gulf states are still under theoretical monarchy. Only nation I can think of that’s improved has been Lebanon.
Kinda sad a movement of so much optimism and hope turned into nothing but conflicts.

Maelya Dufour

@smallkoala221292 · Jan 10, 2026

I feel useless

My entire life I’ve been overweight, it used to really bother me in like 7th and 8th grade, but i eventually learned to love myself for who I am and become the best version of myself just for me. I’m now in the absolute best shape in my life (I’m still definitely overweight but the improvement is visible) and recently I began taking some extra Physical Education classes to see just how much I’ve improved, and yet on every single run, I’ve come dead last. I feel all those years of self hatred rush back as I watch each of my classmates pass me by and I feel like all the effort I’ve put in has been for nothing. I’ll admit it’s not as bad as before, I used to feel like i shouldn’t even be alive, but the self hate is still there and I can’t see myself ever escaping it.

Maelya Dufour

@smallkoala221292 · Jan 10, 2026

What's something extremely dorky you've done that you're proud of?

I'm an early 40s Xennial who's a huge fan of classic Transformers toys, and I'm also a big nerd for road signs. I got myself a large red Autobot insignia sticker for the hood of my car, and the sticker was custom made from an official PennDOT road sign manufacturer who made the sticker out of the same high-visibility material used in road signs!

Maelya Dufour

@smallkoala221292 · Jan 9, 2026

My dentist could only remove 1 and a half teeth so now I have to wait two weeks for my next appointment. Anyone got any

After an incident with a jaw breaker, I needed to have a molar extracted. Finally got my wish of having my wisdom tooth removed since it's caused my jaw nothing but pain for 14 years. Wisdom tooth has finally buggered off for good!
But my molar is still somewhat there, just really wobbly. 5 lots of injections to the area, and still so much pain. Even now, the pain is worse than when I originally broke it.
This also means my application to the Jeremy Kyle revival is on hold. Bloody criterias, never did like those things.
Edit: down at the hospital now. I'm disabled with a high pain tolerance, rarely ever show discomfort. I've been crying in A&E, getting lots of funny looks. Well, at least I get tomorrow off I guess.

Maelya Dufour

@smallkoala221292 · Jan 9, 2026

My annoying tendency while watching shows and movies

I've read some other posts talking about it saying it's some sort of ocd but I'm not diagnosed. Everytime i watch a show or a movie, i constantly repeat scenes, twice at least. It's nothing serious but it's definitely pissing me off. It's as if I'm trying to commit every sentence and every second to memory.
I tried just not do it but my head focused more on that resistance rather than the playing scenes. This shit problem is most apparent while watching foreign movies with subtitles like anima and stuff.
Imagine 1 night i can only get pass 3 to maybe 4 episodes, with how little my personal time is, it's just a pain. 1 hour 30 minutes movie turns to 3 hour session. Hell, with how cooked my attention span plus the limited personal time i have to break up the movies to different sessions in different day.
Nothing serious or anything but it's annoying. So annoying. Not doing it is annoying too, like an itch i can't get. Anyone feelin the same?

Maelya Dufour

@smallkoala221292 · Jan 9, 2026

X Didn't Fix Grok's ‘Undressing’ Problem. It Just Makes People Pay for It

X is only allowing “verified” users to create images with Grok. Experts say it represents the “monetization of abuse”—and anyone can still generate images on Grok’s app and website.