Morgan Haidari

Morgan Haidari

@blackbear564215 · Jan 12, 2026

Today is the day I accept my silence.

I used to think that if I worked hard enough and shared my story honestly, the world would listen. I am a software dev who was born with a hardware error. After 19 surgeries, I thought my 20th would be my upgrade to stereo sound.
After seeing 800,000 people pass by my project like I’m a ghost, I finally understand. I am meant to be incomplete. I’m giving up on the Angel of Sound project. I’m giving up on the surgery. I will just be the guy with the asymmetric face and the mono hearing. To those who actually tried to help, you made me feel human for a second. Thank you. Goodbye.

Morgan Haidari

@blackbear564215 · Jan 11, 2026

CMV: Mamdani's win in NYC was a fluke, the Democratic Party is not trending left or embracing socialism, and the only re

Long title so I'll so elaborate on the view I have regarding Zohran Mamdani's victory relative to the Democratic Party as a whole. I think that it happened almost solely because Andrew Cuomo entered the Democratic primary, and that he personally destroyed the any moderates' chances at winning the primary.
Andrew Cuomo, the big name former Governor, too big a name for any other moderate to compete with him. But unfortunately the big name former Governor was also embroiled in controversies. Had he not ran, I think there were two realistic possibilities: either Eric Adams would absorb the moderate vote in the primary and lose the primary but then win the general election as an independent, or more likely a younger (and more popular) high profile moderate like Ritchie Torres or Dan Goldman would've ran in the primary and won, and then won in the general election by 2021 level margins.
But Andrew Cuomo was both too strong a candidate to compete with in the primary and too weak a candidate to actually be electable. He destroyed Eric Adams' path to re-election (re-electing the incumbent is always the simplest option), and he prevented a younger less controversial high profile moderate fro

Morgan Haidari

@blackbear564215 · Jan 10, 2026

Terrified of following my passion.

Title says it all.
I hate my current job. It pays well and there’s career growth that is attractive but I hate it. I’m stuck in an office 24/7.
My previous career, I was working on live entertainment productions. It was hard work, but the rush was amazing. Being behind the scenes and having the crowd cheer at the end of the night, I felt so fulfilled.
I ended up switching due to finances and politics.
I’m considering switching back but I’m terrified.
I’m terrified that it’ll be a mistake.
For context, I’m alone, single, no family. I have no property, and basically live out of a suitcase due to the current potion. (Previous position was basically the same) I’m also 33.
For context, the previous position does not really have any financial growth, but the current one can grow +$3000.
My worry is that in the long run, I will not be able to support myself if I move back to following my passion. Especially if I eventually retire. But at the same time, I don’t feel fulfilled where I am currently.
I’m not lucky enough to have family to fall back to if my plan fails.
It’s terrifying. I’m terrified and not sure what to do. It’s giving me stress and anxiety. (On the upside, that’s forced me i

Morgan Haidari

@blackbear564215 · Jan 10, 2026

im 18 and ive come decently close to dying 4 if not 5 times

i choked badly twice as a kid, almost drowned twice (once at about 10, the other at 15), and one time i was practicing pole dancing and the entire pole came down on me from the ceiling (mind you about 20lbs of metal PLUS my bodyweight) and i almost went out a second story window. also couldve easily hit me on the head but luckily it landed inches away from the window and only landed on my left forearm (which was injured but surprisingly not broken). i even have the pole incident on camera. my life is like a reverse final destination movie

Morgan Haidari

@blackbear564215 · Jan 10, 2026

I'm not ready for a relationship

So I just started dating this guy. It's been about two weeks. It was very sudden. He asked me to be his girlfriend with an hours of meeting him and I've never been in a relationship so I thought why not if it doesn't work out then we break up, but I actually really like the guy and I want to work out. He's very sweet and attentive unfortunately he lives three hours away. We met while he was on vacation visiting his family. And I have the wandering feeling to go on hinge or Tinder or hit up one of my old links. I literally feel my finger going to the App Store and I have to stop myself. I buy myself thinking about pass hook ups. I'm not gonna do that. I don't think I have it in me, but I also don't think I have it in me to give up this relationship quite yet because I think I should give it a chance there's a lot that I can learn about myself by being with this man. There's honestly a lot that I could gain in the meantime I just don't know how much longer I can keep this up like yeah I could do it for another month for sure in the hopes that eventually I fall in love with them so I won't want to essentially cheat on him. But he was here for like a week and a half and now he's just g