Kerim Abadan

Kerim Abadan

@whitekoala494577 · Jan 10, 2026

Tell me I’m wrong

I feel that everyone around me isn’t pulling there weight and that the world has become way to selfish.
I went for a walk today and a woman told me that I was in her way she needed space. I was 10 feet away and she was walking towards me I was on the right side of the sidewalk. I didn’t move and as she passed me she said thanks for nothing.
I might be old but what happened to people.
Something in this world needs to change,

Kerim Abadan

@whitekoala494577 · Jan 10, 2026

Feeling lost in life

I'm returning to university after a year's break due to mental health issues. It should be a positive thing, but I no longer have any interest or motivation to study academically. When I started my studies several years ago, I actually enjoyed it, but now it's like all that has disappeared. Nothing about university feels interesting anymore. I feel completely lost. I've tried to apply to other universities in the past, but I wasn't successful and also didn't know what I was looking for. I don't know what's wrong, should I just force myself through university or find something else to do? Finding a simple job doesn't actually sound so bad at the moment, but everyone in my family says that I should invest in my education and get a degree. But it's probably true as others say, that a job without higher education doesn't provide high income. Not sure why I'm writing this, maybe to get some new perspectives. Thank you for reading.

Kerim Abadan

@whitekoala494577 · Jan 10, 2026

I am jealous of my sister and I am starting to resent her for it

I have been contemplating to write about this for quite some time because I simply feel stupid for even feeling that way.
I (f22) have an older sister (f29), who I get along with quite well in general until recently. 10 years ago my sister moved far away to go to university and came home maybe twice a year due to the distance. She kept in touch with our family with weekly calls but that was it.
However two years ago she moved closer to home again and as a result now visits us at least once a month for a few days and I have started comparing myself to her.
For starters my sister has an engineering degree and works for a big company. She is lucky enough to work remotely and makes good money. I on the other hand am an EMT. While the salary is nice, the job is draining emotionally and physically in a way I never imagined. The shift work is exhausting and I barely have a social life due to that.
My sister on the other hand has plenty of free time due to her kind of work and has a good social life even though she is more of an introvert.
She lives in a gorgeous apartment with the sweetest cat ever while I still live at home due to the cost of living. I cannot help see myself as a fail, c

Kerim Abadan

@whitekoala494577 · Jan 10, 2026

Abendrunde

Wer noch wach ist, droppt gleich rüber zu kassem – Aftertalk lohnt sich immer.

Kerim Abadan

@whitekoala494577 · Jan 9, 2026

I realized I don’t actually enjoy being “productive” anymore

For a long time, I liked the feeling of being productive full days, packed to-do lists, always moving.
Lately though, it feels different.
Not bad, just… hollow.
The moments that feel best now are the quiet ones where nothing is being optimized or tracked. No goal attached.
I didn’t expect that shift, and I’m still figuring out what it means.
Has anyone else felt something like that?

Kerim Abadan

@whitekoala494577 · Jan 9, 2026

Does anyone else actually enjoy quiet evenings, or am I the odd one out?

I’m 24, work in tech, and I’ve realized my favorite part of the day is when things get… quiet. No loud music, no chaos — just a walk, a café, or sitting with my thoughts pretending I’m not overthinking.
Everyone around me seems to love clubbing and loud plans, and I’m over here getting excited about good filter coffee, long walks, and calm conversations about random things like work, life, or why buses never show up on time.
So I’m curious —
What does a *perfect calm evening* look like for you?