Cesar Peña

Cesar Peña

@smallbear176891 · Jan 10, 2026

How to come off more confident and assertive even as an introvert?

What should I do here? I suck at humor and knowing what to say to people idk well.
I just awkwardly smile or nod if I don’t know what to say

Cesar Peña

@smallbear176891 · Jan 10, 2026

What's the point of just surviving?

I feel like I haven't been truly alive since childhood, and that level of appreciation for life is almost impossible to reach as an adult. Once you understand how things work and how mundane your life truly is, it loses it's magic. I'm constantly on autopilot and there's nothing I can do about it. I'm too too tired to keep going. I'm sorry, goodbye.

Cesar Peña

@smallbear176891 · Jan 10, 2026

Jealous of people who are irresponsible and/or don't work

I'm from the US, been working in healthcare for over a decade. I make 6 figures (not a physician) and I have a good life. I'm responsible, dependable, and have my finances pretty well in order. I had to be that way from a young age due to an abusive home life: dad was the main abuser (physical), mom ignored basically everything except work and money.
The problem is: I don't want to be responsible or work anymore, and I'm jealous of people who can be. I'm jealous of people who can stay home and collect government checks. Everytime someone says "OMG look at these people, they COULD work, but they leech off the govvy" and I think "they have it figured out then, that's the way it should be". This isn't to bash people who are on welfare, just the opposite.
I know I shouldn't be jealous, because a certain population of people would LOVE to get off welfare and work if they could. I also know that the people who ARE irresponsible eventually burn bridges and end up alone because noone can trust them. You hear of trust fund/rich kids all the time being irresponsible because they can afford to, usually because mommy and daddy cover them. I still can't help but feel jealous that people can eve