Magdalena Vidal

Magdalena Vidal

@smalllion338301 · Jan 10, 2026

I don’t cry, and it’s troubling me a lot.

I cannot cry, the last time I cried was when I was still a child. Even during relatives’ deaths, I could not cry, despite every other member of the family doing so. I was the only one.
And now, even when me and my lover go through terrible things, she is the only one who cries, I don’t, and it makes her feel like I don’t care enough to cry, that it doesn’t affect me nearly as much.
But it does, I do feel terrible, I do feel like crying, I feel a knot forming in my throat, a pain in my chest, I tremble and shake and god knows how I can describe it all. I do feel things, but I simply cannot cry, and I very honestly do not know the reason, but I really want to be able to cry, I want to start crying, so that I can show my feelings, and so that she no longer thinks I don’t care about her, that she is not worthy enough for me to shed a single tear over her.

Magdalena Vidal

@smalllion338301 · Jan 10, 2026

Tell me I’m wrong

I feel that everyone around me isn’t pulling there weight and that the world has become way to selfish.
I went for a walk today and a woman told me that I was in her way she needed space. I was 10 feet away and she was walking towards me I was on the right side of the sidewalk. I didn’t move and as she passed me she said thanks for nothing.
I might be old but what happened to people.
Something in this world needs to change,

Magdalena Vidal

@smalllion338301 · Jan 10, 2026

I’m turning 40 in 13 days

Went out tonight with family and friends to celebrate early. Every single one of them is older than me and somehow they’re all asleep already.
I’m still wide awake, scrolling on my phone, questioning how time moved this fast. Turning 40 in 13 days and realizing I might actually have more energy now than people older than me,,, but fuuuuuuccccckkkiii it’s 40!!!

Magdalena Vidal

@smalllion338301 · Jan 10, 2026

Those Chelsea Pensioners, how do they choose who's the next in line?

I worked the Chelsea Flower Show some years back and had the pleasure of a pint in their pub(really it was like a working mans club), several of them were quite beligerent though.