Anastas Makoterskiy

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 10, 2026

My son hugged me goodbye and he smelled just like my dad. I cried so hard in the car on the way to work.

My dad passed away 6 years ago. I still miss him terribly. I was going out the door to work and got my goodbye hugs. It hurts in such a bittersweet way to smell my dad on my buddy. My oldest is a teenager now and I’m dealing with him moving out soon and feeling like I’m going to lose him to this harsh world somehow. That’s all just a weird feeling I had to scream into the void about.

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 10, 2026

Need help getting away from dad

I'm not going to mention my age but I am under 16, my parents are divorced and have been almost my entire life, I've never had a family, anyways my dad has been screaming at me when I struggle to eat from an eating discorder, he knows that, also I have been getting punished for that, he took my phone away for 6 hours because I struggled to eat an apple and then told me he wants me to suffer, there is no legal thing that says I have to stay there no court orders or anything, and he says if I don't come with him he's gonna drag me from my mums house and force me into the car which I think is abduction if he has no right, please help me I'm scared.

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 10, 2026

Are any of us happy with the state of things?

The murders of both Charlie Kirk and Renee Good are tragedies. Subjectivity has no place in this conversation.
I find it incredibly disturbing that each incident had/has anyone justifying or even *defending* it.
Unless either of those two people shot your puppy and your mama and your cat and your daddy, it is insane to wish death upon them, let alone rejoice in it!
Even if Charlie Kirk was, as described by many, a hate-mongerer; and if Renee Good was a radical leftist intent on obstructing law enforcement, did either of them directly threaten harm to your person or your loved ones?
Them. As people. Not as whatever rhetoric you believe either chose to spread.
No?
Then you’re a sick fuck for relishing their deaths.
I mourn for both and their families. I do not feel the need to let you know whose supposed ideology I most align with.
It doesn’t matter.

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 10, 2026

The fact that interviews are performances rather genuine conversations is so frustrating, bizarre even.

How do businesses expect to cultivate loyalty among employees when the screening process lends to faking it as a rule?
I’ve been a freelancer and I have not been really socialized into the adult-jobs world. But I’ve transitioned to “adult professional,” and the interview process is nauseating.
Answering questions using a specific structure doesnt communicate my capacity, my virtue… Only proper socialization and ability to conform to arbitrary signals of status.
I get that interviewers identify personality types and signals that will cause the least friction in a company as evidenced by their ability to perform answering interview questions, but fuuuuuuuuuuck!

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 10, 2026

[1241] Cut It Out

My brain has been packed. I’ll be lucky to put a paragraph together for what feels like a dozen different subjects. My head no less compiling and looking for the patterns.
They killed an average, normal, sparkling white woman. Just now. Just NOW people are arriving at, “It could be me!” Not people who pay attention. Not people who read history. The people who can’t be bothered or can’t handle what it takes to be enmeshed in the political landscape. And who can blame them? It’s one impossible, unprecedented, and seemingly intractable problem after the next every single day. They’ve already killed innocent Americans. They’ve been Nazis all along.
We fought world wars over this shit. It wasn’t that long ago. My grandpa killed Nazis. We established a world order to try and avoid ending up like 100 million people who had to die because hatred and a desire for power ran amok. I’ve been asking for years, how bad does it need to get? How many people have to die for the worst reasons imaginable before we’re back at some iteration of a world war footing? How many lies are we not going to call lies? How often are we gonna play the “both sides” game? How many criminals are we going to pardon a

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 10, 2026

The American Health Care system is such a fucking joke

The American healthcare system is a joke. From the insurance companies to the providers to the companies making medicines and treatments to help people, they have all failed their patients and the American people.
I have seen my best friend lose his teenage sister because insurance companies wouldn’t cover the care needed to treat her rare bone cancer. I saw my best friend’s family start GoFundMe’s to raise money to try and take her to experimental treatments in other countries.
I watched my dad struggle with cancer for 5 years before it took his life in 2020. Surgery after surgery. Insurance companies rejecting treatments recommended by the Doctors forcing him into experimental treatments that gave him diabetes before he died.
I honestly have never seen more brave people than my father going to surgery after surgery, treatment after treatment to fight and stay alive. Or my friend’s sister fighting for her life and willing to do anything to stay alive. The same goes for my mother and my friend’s family being brave and supporting them as best as they can.
My MIL has a disease there is no cure for and it feels like it’s more just that a cure doesn’t want to be invented and given just

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 10, 2026

I genuinely resent my past self for being right wing and being so gullible

Around 2015 I had my “political awakening” I guess? My roommate and I were just edgelords for the sake of being edgelords. And I remember going down a whole rabbit hole of right wing content throughout college and just being probably an exhausting and unlikeable person.
I wouldn’t say I was racist, but I definitely enjoyed leaving internet strangers with the thought that I was? Like if I’d say anything that got someone to call me a racist I’d just claim that as some kind of victory for myself.
In my early twenties I was at my absolute worst, and became a strong Trump supporter (despite, idiotically, not even being American so at least I never voted for him).
I was obnoxious, I was sexist, I enjoyed getting a rise out of people over things I just didn’t understand or didn’t care to understand. And none of that was ok or acceptable.
There are no excuses here. Between ages 18 and about 23 (now 27) I was just a bad person. And things like what just happened in Minnesota make that honestly hard to live with and move forward with without feeling guilty. The fact I spent time trying to rationalise stuff like J6 and racist police shootings I just genuinely don’t know what the fuck was goin

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 10, 2026

Emotions control decisions more than we admit

We like to think we’re logical.
But most decisions are made emotionally first.
Logic usually comes later — to explain the feeling.
We stay where we feel safe.
We leave where we don’t.
Understanding the emotion behind a choice made my behavior make sense — without judging it.
Sometimes awareness matters more than reasoning.

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 10, 2026

Feeling lost in life

I'm returning to university after a year's break due to mental health issues. It should be a positive thing, but I no longer have any interest or motivation to study academically. When I started my studies several years ago, I actually enjoyed it, but now it's like all that has disappeared. Nothing about university feels interesting anymore. I feel completely lost. I've tried to apply to other universities in the past, but I wasn't successful and also didn't know what I was looking for. I don't know what's wrong, should I just force myself through university or find something else to do? Finding a simple job doesn't actually sound so bad at the moment, but everyone in my family says that I should invest in my education and get a degree. But it's probably true as others say, that a job without higher education doesn't provide high income. Not sure why I'm writing this, maybe to get some new perspectives. Thank you for reading.

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 10, 2026

Whats a something that you think people dont do enough that brighten up there day? For me its putting small stickers on

I feel like i should fill up my space with small things that make it me you know. So a tiny sticker on the cabinet door. Or one on the back of the tv would be nice. Hidden stickers give a sense of time. Like wow ive lived her for a long time.

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 10, 2026

Got my first wedgie today

Never thought I would say this in my lifetime, but I actually received my first wedgie today from a friend. She snuck up behind me and gave me a wedgie as a prank.
I always thought this only happened in tv and movies, so this was pretty unexpected.
Is this actually a common thing that happens? Has anyone else ever had this happen to them?

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 10, 2026

I’m trying to improve my life this year. What’s one habit that actually worked for you?

I’m trying to actually improve my life this year, but I feel like I keep starting habits that never stick. I want something practical — not just “wake up at 5 AM” or “meditate every day” advice.
What’s one habit you started that genuinely made a difference in your life? Could be small, like drinking more water, or big, like completely changing how you manage your time. I’m open to anything that actually works — I really need some inspiration!

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 10, 2026

You see someone you know from a distance.

There’s still time to turn away.
You’re not avoiding them, you’re just deciding whether today is a talking day.
Funny how those tiny moments can turn into full internal debates.

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 10, 2026

I found myself overthinking.

Last night I feel like I genuinely spiralled into my thoughts too deep, in a way that wasn’t good for me. Everything was going good, in fact I was quite happy and cheerful before I went to bed, but later on I ended up thinking heavily about the things that did not work out for me last year, and about the emotional baggage I have been carrying that I am slowly healing from. I genuinely just want to forget all the bad things and move on from everything that made me feel down or that still makes me feel miserable. I want to find my happiness again, and I was doing that, things were going good, but you know some bad moments make you feel like your progress has halted. I don’t want that. I don’t want to be held back from happiness anymore, and that’s why I am willing to not give up and still find a way. I hope I succeed.

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 9, 2026

I am Alone

I am very alone and feeling lonely . It feels like I am an orphan. I have no frds. I feels like I am always alone. But I am here to have some frds

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 9, 2026

Are you a sock, sock, shoe, shoe person or a sock, shoe, sock, shoe person?

Sometimes I think about how our daily habits differentiate us from one another. This came up randomly today, and I realized people actually do this differently.
I’ve always followed one order without thinking much about it.
I am a sock, sock, shoe, shoe person.
Now I’m curious what most people do and why. What's your routine?

Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 9, 2026

Owner of Swiss ski bar held in custody after deadly New Year's Eve fire

Jacques Moretti is being held as a potential flight risk, Swiss media reports say.