Clarice Souza

Clarice Souza

@purplesnake190597 · Jan 10, 2026

Me and the way I interact with people

I actually find it funny and confusing how I feel sad about being lonely and not having anyone to talk to when I feel really bad/really happy
But at the same time I distance myself from people who makes an effort to get close at me and then try to get close at people who distance themselves from me/don't like me much
If anyone feels the same way as well, do you have any idea why? I would like to understand or solve this to be honest
also I like starting relationships (friendships) but I don't maintain it. any reason why? and how can I fix this

Clarice Souza

@purplesnake190597 · Jan 10, 2026

I’m drunk, British, but I think it’s a shame we can’t rely on America (USA) anymore

I’m a 35 year old guy, and from my experience America has always been a contentious topic. They had the best TV shows, the best games, the best everything when I was growing up in the 90s. Sure… my parents thought they were obnoxious and loud, but those were fairly small complaints.
I don’t think that’s the case anymore and I’m just sharing my perspective even though I’m far from sober and know this is contentious
<<< and this is where you’ll have to excuse me because I was 12… and maybe if I was 35 things would have seemed as bleak as they are right now >>>
Then things went bad in the 2000s, you went to war and we followed you. This was not the most popular thing to happen, triggering huge protests in the UK. However I think generally people understood why it happened and why the American people were so angry. Even though a lot of people didn’t agree with it, a lot of them “understood”
So time goes by and these “wars” continue but after the initial years it doesn’t really impact Europe, we pull out and the US stay there…
People within America seemed to be pretty happy though… your freedoms were expanding, you could love who you want to love, smoke what you want to smoke… worry le

Clarice Souza

@purplesnake190597 · Jan 10, 2026

People who leave you mid-sentence don’t know what they destroy.

Some people don’t leave with a fight.
They don’t even leave with a goodbye.
They leave while you are still talking.
Mid-sentence.
You are still explaining what hurt.
Still choosing your words carefully.
Still hoping this time, if you say it right, you will be understood.
And then they are gone.
Not dead.
Not angry.
Just suddenly unavailable.
I have started to realise this is how a lot of adult relationships end. Not with honesty. Not with closure. But with a quiet disappearance that feels polite on the outside and violent on the inside.
They stop replying.
They change tone.
They drift into “busy” and never come back.
You are left holding the last thing you said, rereading it, wondering if that was the moment you became too much.
There is something especially cruel about being abandoned while you are still emotionally exposed. While you are mid-story. Mid-confession. Mid-vulnerability. It teaches your nervous system that opening your mouth is dangerous. That telling the truth is how you get erased.
So you learn to edit yourself.
You soften your sentences.
You hide your needs inside jokes.
You become small so people will stay.
But they still leave.
And the worst part is not even the