How Do I Find Clarity and Direction After Years of Uncertainty?
Hello,
As I reflect on the past decade of my life, I find myself at a crossroads, feeling a mix of uncertainty and a desire for change. In just seven months, I’ll be turning 30, and I can’t help but feel the weight of my choices.
Over the last ten years, I’ve ventured through college, earning a degree in political science with aspirations of attending law school. However, after four years, I realized that this path wasn’t right for me. I then shifted gears to pursue a degree in psychology, investing two years and a significant amount of money in tuition, only to find myself drawn back to the idea of law school once more.
I dedicated countless hours to studying and sought tutoring, which took a considerable financial toll. I started to see progress with my practice tests, feeling that I was on the verge of doing well. Then, out of nowhere, I landed a job that I thought would unlock my potential. Although it wasn’t paying six figures right away, I was told there was potential for growth. At $35 an hour, it was the most I’d ever made, but the environment turned out to be toxic and draining.
Now, after 4 to 5 months in that role, returning to the rigorous study required for law school
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