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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 12, 2026

Technicalities have changed how I see the world

Okay, so this is a bit of a weird post, and a weird title, but anyways. Recently I've realised things about technicalities, mainly about myself, but about other things as well. For example, I'm bisexual, so, in a weird way, I'm *technically* straight and *technically* gay at the same time. Also, slavery was *technically* legal in England until 2010 due to a technicality (owning a person was and is still illegal in England). These are kind of weird examples, but anyways, these are some unusual things I've been thinking about recently.

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

How to respond to jokes or being teased?

When people would tease me I would just awkwardly smile back. I don’t know what else to say back to it. I get when ppl are joking just idk how to respond.
What should I do then?

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

Should I go back to med school?

I quit med school early last year. I was in my 2nd year and I had really good grades, but I dropped out due to my mental sanity. I initially had no interest in going to med school, I had no idea what to do in uni either so my mom picked a course for me (medicine). I went with it because it meant I didn’t have to think about what to do. I went in really blind tbh, I really had no idea what happens in med school. I was just there because I had the brains to qualify and pass the entrance exam and interview.
I often expressed my displeasure/ frustration, with the course because it barely left me time to do any other thing other than study ,to my mom severally but she didn’t take it seriously because my grades were good and that was all that mattered to her.
I took a trip away from my home country and realized how depressed I was and how much I genuinely hated med school.To top it all off, I was having allergic reactions to the mold in the dissection lab(crazy fr) that I barely attended dissection lessons( less than 7 times in the 40 sessions), but “as long as I pass right”.
Anyway, after the trip I told my mom I genuinely couldn’t do it anymore because even though my physical health w

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

Honestly I think my neighbors actually like being heard through these thin walls

It’s honestly weird. I can hear my neighbors being so loud during their private moments that there’s no way they don’t realize the whole building hears it. Every time it happens I just sit there thinking about it. Do they genuinely not care. Or is being heard actually part of it for them.
I’m not even angry. Just confused. Whenever I remember how thin the walls are I automatically lower my voice or turn the TV down. It’s a reflex. But with them it feels like that switch just doesn’t exist. Maybe some people really move through life without thinking about anyone around them. I honestly don’t know. It definitely makes living here… awkward.

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

I’m gen z and I hate how social media companies have ruined everything

When I was in highschool I often felt like people outside of my friend group didn’t want to have conversations with me. Maybe it’s just me overthinking a couple instances. When Covid happened I went to this highschool and met some old friend. I tried talking to him about literally anything and he didn’t seem to care he was on his phone the whole time, and very unresponsive. I can’t help but feel kids are becoming less interesting and lacking personality because of how much time they spend on their phones rather than having genuine conversations. I have 2 younger sisters and they aren’t “iPad kids” thank god. All this stupid AI stuff there trying to shove down our throats hasn’t benefited me in any way and I don’t know how it’s beneficial at all when you can just look something up on the internet. It really feels like companies nowadays don’t care what they make and as long as they advertise a billion times and make money they will keep making it. It feels like technology has just stopped advancing and now it’s just stupid stuff that’s advertised as the future when really it doesn’t do anything. I hate that meta needs to know every inkling about you they own a lot of social media co

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

Reddit now allows cmd+enter to submit comment. This is amazing.

I know it's very unlikely the developer who pushed this through will ever find this comment but I love you and will name my first child after you if you make yourself known.

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

"I will show you true power" my life in NOT a nutshell.

Honestly i don't know why i talk about this here. But saw some great themes and....why not?
Its a 20+ years story so ITS GONNA BE LONG.
I am 26 year and those 22 years of my life i wanna talk about.
I started this writing around 3.5 hours ago xd ALSO THERE ARE INSTANCES where i used the word "violated" but i was stupid so take those as not rape but physical damage causing
My father is not a rapist but was a fuck up.
Its about how my life went "kratos vs zeus" with my father and me. The only difference that i did not killed him.
Where to begin? Don't know so i just blast everything here, trying to make it correct in timelapses to be followable.
My father was a cruel man. Don't think i need to explain further if i mention Alcoholism? So he beat every family member since i know myself. (even before me was born and that was atleast 30years ago)
One of my core memory where he beat the shit out of my mother on the ground while my 2 big brother and older sister were in the other room, terrified i guess?
Don't know why i was looking at that scene, my mother said i cried like hell, still i didn't looked away.
Somehow like this, imagine my little ME years. I was afraid my father, ofc i didn'

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

Should I go back to med school?

I quit med school early last year. I was in my 2nd year and I had really good grades, but I dropped out due to my mental sanity. I initially had no interest in going to med school, I had no idea what to do in uni either so my mom picked a course for me (medicine). I went with it because it meant I didn’t have to think about what to do. I went in really blind tbh, I really had no idea what happens in med school. I was just there because I had the brains to qualify and pass the entrance exam and interview.
I often expressed my displeasure/ frustration, with the course because it barely left me time to do any other thing other than study ,to my mom severally but she didn’t take it seriously because my grades were good and that was all that mattered to her.
I took a trip away from my home country and realized how depressed I was and how much I genuinely hated med school.To top it all off, I was having allergic reactions to the mold in the dissection lab(crazy fr) that I barely attended dissection lessons( less than 7 times in the 40 sessions), but “as long as I pass right”.
Anyway, after the trip I told my mom I genuinely couldn’t do it anymore because even though my physical health w

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

I want to talk about friends.

I feel like I don’t need or really want friends. I feel immense pressure to make friends and have a social life but honestly when it comes down to it, I don’t really care. I don’t have a lot in common with people, I have nothing to say to them, talking feels exhausting and performative. The only times I feel like having friends is around Christmas time, new years, or when there’s an event or place I want to check out but I can’t do it alone. In these cases it’s more that I like the idea of having someone to do these things with more than having actual friends. This holiday season was very lonely but at the same time it feels like I only felt lonely because it’s seen as pathetic to spend the holidays at home doing the same things that you do every other day of the year.
A bit of context, I’m mid thirties, single, I was lucky to have some really good friends over the years, but due to circumstances we’re scattered all over the world. I’ve moved to a new city about 6 months ago. I haven’t made any friends yet. I tried, but only half-heartedly if I’m honest with myself. I rarely talk with my roommates. the idea of starting over building relationships bores me. I met these wonderful peo

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

"I will show you true power" my life in NOT a nutshell.

Honestly i don't know why i talk about this here. But saw some great themes and....why not?
Its a 20+ years story so ITS GONNA BE LONG.
I am 26 year and those 22 years of my life i wanna talk about.
I started this writing around 3.5 hours ago xd ALSO THERE ARE INSTANCES where i used the word "violated" but i was stupid so take those as not rape but physical damage causing
My father is not a rapist but was a fuck up.
Its about how my life went "kratos vs zeus" with my father and me. The only difference that i did not killed him.
Where to begin? Don't know so i just blast everything here, trying to make it correct in timelapses to be followable.
My father was a cruel man. Don't think i need to explain further if i mention Alcoholism? So he beat every family member since i know myself. (even before me was born and that was atleast 30years ago)
One of my core memory where he beat the shit out of my mother on the ground while my 2 big brother and older sister were in the other room, terrified i guess?
Don't know why i was looking at that scene, my mother said i cried like hell, still i didn't looked away.
Somehow like this, imagine my little ME years. I was afraid my father, ofc i didn'

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

Have you ever made holidays in Russia?

I ask non-russians and where have you been to there?

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

Does anyone else feel weird saying their real age

Does anyone else feel weird saying their real age? I’m 20, but I don’t really like telling people my actual age. Not sure why, it just feels awkward

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

CMV: Movie Pass Could Have Worked

I’ve seen a lot of comments about how movie pass was doomed to fail from the start because the economics never made sense. But I claim that the fundamental idea is sound, it just needed a couple tweaks.
The big issue with movie pass is that it paid face value for any ticket to the theaters. It’s true that this system doesn’t work. However, the key to fixing movie pass lies in recognizing that the marginal cost of filling an empty seat at many showings is near zero. So, two tweaks could have made movie pass work.
First, it needed to have blackouts for any showing that was expected to be near capacity (that is, any showing where the marginal cost of a seat is not zero).
Next, it needed to negotiate a much better price than face value with the theater chains. The theater chains should have a strong incentive to do this; movie pass would be filling showings that otherwise would get very low viewership with more people. The margin on concessions alone makes up for the minimal marginal cost (from janitorial services, etc) of that viewer.
The one worry is that movie pass would simply give a cheaper option to people who already go to lots of movies, but I think we have clear evidence that

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

CMV: we should replace religion with marcus aurelius’s meditations

it’s even structured in book:verse format. it’s ideals are more logical/rely less on faith than other religions. it teaches strong morals that are easily understandable but able to be contemplated for an entire lifetime. it has ties to history to allow the themes to fee more real and graspable to non-imaginative/spiritual people. it references religious themes, but with regard to an ancient religion that is no longer widely practiced, so it connect spiritually but doesn’t have longstanding tension/baggage attached; this allows people of all religions to consider the message of the work without (as much) bias. this idea doesn’t even necessitate giving up your preexisting religion. it addresses death and allows people to understand/cope with it in a different and more logical way than relying on unseen/unprovable forces, especially given the military history/context behind the author.
“but isn’t that just learning about a book? you could do just that in school or on your own, that doesn’t replace religion“ I hear you say
you could easily “preach” “sermons” from meditations to a group, just like holding church. red pill YouTubers already do this online, albeit much different morals. y

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

CMV: There should be third party/watchdog investigators for any federal shootings, and the FBI should NOT be allowed to

I just recently read that the FBI is stopping local Minnesota investigators from investigating the shooting that occurred. So the FBI will be investigating the DHS, while both are pushing agendas in unison.
I believe that this should not be legal whatsoever. I think it's akin to police departments investigating themselves and finding no evidence of wrongdoing. (I personally saw this happening in New Orleans during Katrina).
I also believe there should always be a third-party investigator or team to handle these types of events, given the risks of internal corruption.
By having a third party work in conjunction with a watchdog organization, I believe justice would prevail, yielding more transparent and conclusive results for citizens like you and me.
Change my view
UPDATE: This should be implemented in the real world, and here is a brief concept of how it could be feasible.
A non-profit could be started and via donations, attract investigators, forensics specialists, legal aids/lawyers/advocates, and security. This would bypass the need to bend to political pressures. That organization would be created with the sole ability to respond to these shootings, where ethics would be questi

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

CMV: ICE has become exactly the tyranny the framers had in mind when drafting the 2nd Amendment.

Legally protected, anonymous armed thugs from HUGE central government, going into residential areas and kidnapping people on vague suspicion, murdering citizens in cold blood. A wholesale assault on our constitutional rights as American citizens. This is precisely the kind of operation that the framers would have considered tyranny—even if not in intent, certainly in practice. We can’t sue, can’t charge, and can’t lawfully resist. Fuck every single last ICE agent and every craven motherfucker that voted for this. By the way, here’s what the Heritage Foundation, architects of Project 2025, have to say about it: “A well-armed citizenry acts as a major check on the ability of would-be tyrants, enabling the people to forcibly resist oppression. In the United States, our constitutional system is premised on the theory that, in a truly free society, ultimate power lies with the people and not with the government. But should the government forget this basic principle, the people maintain the practical power that comes with being armed for their own defense. The threat of tyranny and oppression is very real, even today.” To Change My View, convince me that a federal secret police force (if

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

CMV: economy size / GDP and true military capabilities are very loosely related things

I often see people comparing Europe and Russia with the tone like "well, Russia's economy is like 15x smaller, it's ridiculous we are getting bullied by them". Or "they can't even take Ukraine, of course it's ridiculous to think they have any chance in Europe".
This is IMO a dangerously naive view. High GDP means you likely have a lot of high tech, a developed service economy, probably some very advanced military tech. But it absolutely doesn't guarantee that:
- you're spending large % of GDP on army to begin with
- you have a large and actually trained army that that combat experience in any large war, or large number of people in the population with some sort of military training you can quickly draft
- you have huge stockpile of ammo, artillery shells, oil/fuel to maintain some 100k people army for a year
- you have leaders willing to go to war
- you are willing to enact marshal law and boost defense spending by 3x or 5x or 10x.
- your population will have enough volunteers to go fight, or you could efficiently forcibly draft enough people without causing massive social unrest
- you are willing to lose million people dead and wounded without colossal shock for the country

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

Have you ever made holidays in Russia?

I ask non-russians and where have you been to there?

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

I found myself overthinking.

Last night I feel like I genuinely spiralled into my thoughts too deep, in a way that wasn’t good for me. Everything was going good, in fact I was quite happy and cheerful before I went to bed, but later on I ended up thinking heavily about the things that did not work out for me last year, and about the emotional baggage I have been carrying that I am slowly healing from. I genuinely just want to forget all the bad things and move on from everything that made me feel down or that still makes me feel miserable. I want to find my happiness again, and I was doing that, things were going good, but you know some bad moments make you feel like your progress has halted. I don’t want that. I don’t want to be held back from happiness anymore, and that’s why I am willing to not give up and still find a way. I hope I succeed.

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 11, 2026

Weird / wonderful experience with music

I'm 31 and I've been casually listening to music my whole life, occasionally I would be moved, but usually it was background noise. For the last couple months I've been listening to music, actively, with my full focus.
I have what is diagnosed as overactive bladder, so that all the time, to varying degrees of intensity it feels like I need to pee, I have a hard time handling it, there is a constant single in my brain telling me something is wrong.
I was listening to dvorak's 6th symphony and in discomfort and instead of thinking of the notes as something separate from me I began to think of them as part of an entire moment, the notes and my body forming one unit. And , for the first time in a long time, I didn't think of my body as "wrong", my body and the notes were the same thing, and the notes were beautiful so I was beautiful, I wasn't wrong. And I wept. It only lasted a few minutes and I don't expect to replicate a feeling that intense, but it was amazing to feel that way for a bit.
I was sober btw

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 10, 2026

My husband is not my soulmate

Me (28F) and my husband (36M) got married 6 years ago. We have a very happy life and I feel so lucky. we rarely argue and have two beautiful children together but he is not my soulmate. I love him, but I know deep down there are people out there who would be more compatible for me. I feel like our souls are on different levels if that makes any sense. I don’t plan on leaving him and know we are going to continue to have an amazing life together, but he’s just not my soulmate.

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 10, 2026

Today is my birthday. My cat died the day before yesterday.

She was very old, but it was still a shock, and it happened in front of me. I don't know what I am going to do without her. I don’t even know what the point of this post is. I don’t know what I’m doing anymore.
Edit: I have been reading every comment. Thank you so much for all of the kindness and support. It means more than I can express with words.

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 10, 2026

I am so sick of my in-laws inability to maintain a home

We’ve always had a mostly good relationship with my in-laws. They show up for my kids, family gatherings, if something comes up and I need someone to watch the kids for work or whatever they almost always volunteer. Our kids love them dearly and love to spend time with them. About 8 years ago they bought a home on a rent to own contract and was able to pay it off last year. They got a good deal on the 3 bedroom 2 bath trailer with a couple acres only paying around 35,000 for it. The bones of the home was still good but it was in need of some updates as the home still had the original late 80’s wallpaper, flooring, etc. honestly over time the home has fallen apart. My FIL works part time handy man type jobs and also gets disability, my MIL works nights cleaning banks so she gets home and asleep around 6am and sleeps until late afternoon each day. Over time these original pieces have gotten destroyed and also just laziness has destroyed part too. There is also a lack of discipline in the home, as they still have now teens and young adults in the home. Some examples is they have a large roach infestation, I have hired an exterminator for my own home because of them and pay $50 a month

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@crazymouse329770 · Jan 10, 2026

Anyone else went through a mid 20s life crisis?

Officially in my late 20s now and realizing how most of my problems (anxiety, self doubt, poor finances, bad social skills) is result of me failing to make the switch from late teenager to actual adult. I can’t even recognize myself and neither does anyone from my past