Clara Johansen

@silverlion378651

København N, Denmark Joined Jan 2026

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Clara Johansen

@silverlion378651 · Jan 12, 2026

I realized I'm only still here for other people, and I don't know how long I can keep doing this. It's so tiring...

I have rewritten this so many times trying to anonymize myself as much as possible. A few of my friends are avid Reddit lurkers, and I'm afraid they might recognize this as me, and that it could escalate into others finding out, which I don't think I could handle.
I wish I could go to sleep tonight knowing I won't wake up. I know I am weak and selfish for hoping for my own death while speaking from a position of privilege. It feels pathetic, but I can't help it anymore. I really don't want to wake up.
I know I have people who love me. I'm in a comfortable economic situation, I have no debt or major problems, and I even have a healthy body. Meanwhile, so many others are dealing with wars, addiction, illness, or life circumstances they never chose. And to those people, I honestly wish I could trade my life directly with you, so you could have a better one, and I could finally rest.
I say that I no longer live for myself because I don't dare cause the devastating pain of losing a child to my mother, whom I love very much. I'm actually not a child anymore, I'm close to my 30s, but I'm tired. I won't act on my wish to die purely for her, so please don't worry or rush to send me helpline

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