Holger Oltmanns

Maëly Chevalier

@crazygorilla307244 · Jan 12, 2026 11:10 am

I'm overwhelmed with guilt over the passing of my beloved cat.

I just lost my Petey (my cat) on the 10th. He hadn't been feeling well but still had his appetite and I thought it was just his teeth bothering him. His dentist appointment was supposed to be the 28th.
Took him to the vet as his appetite lessened to an alarming amount. They did bloodwork and alarm bells were ringing. The word, "Cancer" was whispered. He was fine in October. Blood levels good. Suddenly he's anemic to the point of needing a blood transfusion and has turned yellow (jaundice).
I had him for 15 years and I feel like I failed him. I should have brought him to the vet the moment he started showing signs of not feeling well. He's had IBS and been on a special diet for years so I guess because he was using the litter box, eating soft food, and drinking water I told myself he was fine.
I miss him so much. He was my responsibility and I failed him.
The vet told me all the things I wanted to hear. "Cats are notorious for hiding how they're feeling" and "You're making the right decision". But I can't help but feel like I'm the reason he isn't here anymore. Well, I am...because I'm the one who decided it was his time to go. To end the suffering I put him through because I chose