Eemil Kokko
@orangetiger399300
Eemil aus Forssa, liebt Street-Fotografie, leichte Fitness-Sessions, immer bereit für neue Kontakte.
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Reached a long term goal, now I’m there I’m wondering if it’s what I really wanted.
I had been trying to land a specific job in a specific industry for a long time, it was incredibly hard to get the job I wanted and I was convinced it would make me happy.
I felt elated to get the offer, but as my start date inched closer I got gradually less excited, and now I’m at the job I don’t feel motivated or excited much, if not at all. The earning potential is great, the hours will get better etc etc, this isn’t a dead end job, I feel I should be excited now I’m finally where I want to be.
I’ve long been someone motivated by proving to myself that I’m good enough for something and I’m wondering if my motivation to break into this industry was really just to prove to myself that I’m good enough and not that I really wanted the job.
Anyone else dealt with this at all and how did you deal with it?
I think my emotions are glitching lately
Lately I feel like something in me is glitching.
Some days I wake up feeling like I can fix my whole life before lunch.
Other days I stare at the wall for 20 minutes trying to decide what to eat.
Nothing “big” happened.
No breakup.
No disaster.
No life-changing moment.
Just… small things piling up quietly in the background until my brain starts lagging.
Sometimes I walk into a room and forget what I was doing.
Sometimes I’m completely fine and then a random thought hits me like:
“Bro, why are you like this?”
I’m trying not to panic every time it happens.
But honestly, it scares me how fast my mood switches.
I don’t think I’m broken, but I definitely feel off.
Like the system is running but half the tabs aren’t responding.
I don’t even know why I wrote this.
I just needed to let it out somewhere.
I realized that i have never talked to a girl except my mom
Okay, so I guess I am too young for this subreddit (M18), but I recently realized that I have had zero female interaction in my life, leaving my mum out of that.
i thought thats ok as i always studied in a boarding school (no, teachers dont count) and i realized thats i cant talk to them
i mean it when i say that iCAN'T i mean it. It's difficult as I have no prior experience and no way to reach out.
I do no tuition whatsoever, so i cant communicate there.
i guess i have to start with online chats first.
what should i do + tips
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