I genuinely resent my past self for being right wing and being so gullible
Around 2015 I had my “political awakening” I guess? My roommate and I were just edgelords for the sake of being edgelords. And I remember going down a whole rabbit hole of right wing content throughout college and just being probably an exhausting and unlikeable person.
I wouldn’t say I was racist, but I definitely enjoyed leaving internet strangers with the thought that I was? Like if I’d say anything that got someone to call me a racist I’d just claim that as some kind of victory for myself.
In my early twenties I was at my absolute worst, and became a strong Trump supporter (despite, idiotically, not even being American so at least I never voted for him).
I was obnoxious, I was sexist, I enjoyed getting a rise out of people over things I just didn’t understand or didn’t care to understand. And none of that was ok or acceptable.
There are no excuses here. Between ages 18 and about 23 (now 27) I was just a bad person. And things like what just happened in Minnesota make that honestly hard to live with and move forward with without feeling guilty. The fact I spent time trying to rationalise stuff like J6 and racist police shootings I just genuinely don’t know what the fuck was goin
