Melanie Vidal

@yellowkoala747738

Any amount of alcohol is poison. Don't listen to those "A glass of wine a week is beneficial!" chuds

Wisen (So), Switzerland Joined Jan 2026

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Melanie Vidal

@yellowkoala747738 · Jan 12, 2026

I have a problem with sex and can't seem to deal with it.

I never really took this in consideration and always thought i was just a pervert for liking kinky shit and that was all, but now growing up to become a adult i realized i really have a problem.
I was sexualy assaulted at a very early age and it opened a really deep scar on me. I believed i had grown out of the trauma and just creates this weird, inoffensive, relationship with sex, but now I see the problem is so much much much more deep than that.
As a teenager i became really in touch with sexual topics and pornography, also in a really early and inappropriate age, which made things worse. I am diagnosed with chronic clinical depression and thought-out my teenage days it was the worse period of it, so naturally i had a really low libido, but that never stopped me from watching pornography as if it were tiktok videos nor touching myself even if i didn't feel anything. I thought it was what people normally did when they were bored. I was never really engaged in touching myself, it wasn't fun, it was just, boredom. I didn't do it for pleasure.
Well, at the time i didn't have any sex life and at the moment that i had sex for the first time in my life, everything changed. Firstly, my

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