Charlotte Moulin

Malou Madsen

@redladybug437347 · Jan 12, 2026 11:08 am

I'm starting to think I need to weigh the pros and cons of killing myself

It's like this:
I want to transition from gender to another. I've *been* wanting to do this for months, and I have a consultation set up so I can get my desired hormones sooner rather than later. I think that my family will accept me, and I currently live someplace where I can get the support I need.
But with things as they are in the world...bad things could happen to me. *Soon*. Just for even *thinking* about doing this, let alone trying to pass.
Understand that I don't feel violently dysphoric in my body. Rather, the inverse is simply *euphoric*. But do you know what I was doing before I started thinking about transitioning? Smoking weed and drinking as often as I could without getting violently ill (and I failed at that a few times). Note that the drinking and smoking had nothing to do with wanting to transition (or at least I don't think it did). Rather, my life had stalled. *Has* stalled, honestly. It's not as though nothing good happens to me...but it's going nowhere. I've run low on ambitions. I'm not interested in much. Even after starting antidepressants, at best I still felt *closed off* from having any passion for anything.
Switching genders, though? *That* excites me.

Justine Fortin

@sadostrich654437 · Jan 12, 2026 9:47 am

Windows Server 2022 not showing December CU?

I went to update a Windows Server 2022 box and it picked up the Security Intelligence Update and the MSRT but it's not showing the December CU as available. The November CU was skipped so the most recent one shown in the history is from October. Why would it not show the December CU? The only GPO on it has "Configure Automatic Updates" disabled under "Administrative Templates/Windows Components/Windows Update/Manage end user experience" is disabled; would it have anything to do with it? How can I get the December CU on it? Were there any issues with the December CU?
SOLVED:
Unbeknowst to me it was patched with a third party patching solution so the Windows Update History doesn't capture those events. The OS Build is at the current level, 20348.4529. All is good. Must be a Friday thing.