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Asta Jørgensen

@happyfrog379198 · Jan 12, 2026 1:01 am

Possibly experiencing auditory hallucinations

I am possibly hearing things that absolutely seem real in the moment but when focusing on the source of sound will abruptly stop and sound continues in my head for a brief second. Which makes me aware it’s possibly not real. A month or so ago I was hearing doorbells that no one around me heard. My family has a history of various mental illnesses so it’s not unexpected that something similar would appear around this time in my life, but I’m afraid of reaching out to medical providers in the fear of being 51/50.

Clóvis Farias

@blueduck664816 · Jan 12, 2026 12:35 am

would it REALLY be so bad if i wasn’t here anymore?

okay bare with me here. i’ve dealt with feeling depressed for most of my life, honestly from when i hit puberty which unfortunately for me was in my preteens. i’ve thought about ending my life for that long too and it got to a point where ive just picked an age where i’m gonna do it. partly due to bullying and honestly just my natural disposition im a very insular person. i don’t have a wide circle of friends, i keep my feelings to myself and take on a supportive role in any friendships i do have. im somewhat close to my family but any sort of conversation about feelings is quickly dismissed so ive given up on talking to them about how i feel.
despite feeling so low i’ve managed to achieve most of my life goals, did well at sport and well at studies to the point where i’m ticking off my last hurdle which is a phd. these are all things my parents wanted me to achieve so once i’ve finished my phd why can’t i just.. go? i’m so tired of never feeling accomplished, of the constant hollow feeling in my chest and the urge has been so bad lately as i’ve been under a lot of stress.
i don’t have many people in my life so there’s not a lot of people will miss me anyway, plus it’s one less per