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Anastas Makoterskiy

@yellowladybug791716 · Jan 11, 2026 6:02 pm

Lost in my feelings

Don't really know where to write this.
Some days, I just feel drained from everything. I just want someone to genuinely care, be there for me, hug me. Honestly, some days I just want a hug. A freaking hug.
I've never been in a relationship, never kissed a boy, nothing. I'm 18, without many friends but that doesn't usually bother me. Sometimes though, it does. I need someone to talk to freely, tell them my thoughts, my dreams, without being afraid they'll judge me. I don't ask for help although I need it badly.
I know I'm still young and got plenty of time ahead of me. Despite that, there are times when I feel like I'm missing on life. I get tired mentally very often and it's even more tiring trying to hide it from my family so they don't get worried. I know family's supposed to make me feel better and yet I don't show my true feelings. It's just the way I am. Discussing my concerns just isn't my cup of tea. And still, I want to. But would they understand? I don't think so and I don't blame them. How would they understand if I'm not able to explain? It's confusing. I don't know what I feel, I don't know what to do. Is this normal for my age?
And then suddenly, I'm optimistic and fai