Carl Ryan

Burevist Titarchuk

@goldenpeacock566263 · Jan 12, 2026 12:46 am

I hate my best friend

Over time, I’ve grown to dislike her more and more. I thought it’d go away, since for a while, these waves of distaste would come in waves for an hour or two and then if I saw her, they’d go away. Now, my hatred of her remains when I am near her, being texted by her, or even just thinking of or being reminded of her. It isn’t just annoyance, but full on anger and sometimes disgust over every little thing.
I‘m not entirely sure why it started happening except for the fact that we had started getting closer and she was more attached than I was and I lost the desire for connection. I wasn’t in the place to invest in any type of relationship or friendship, especially one where I can’t return anything. But instead of falling back into being acquainted, I have just started to despise her. Part of it might be that she has a few mental health issues, and I have bad correlations with those because of difficult times with family members growing up, but my other friends and I myself have my own problems. When she was most comfortable with me, she had started to give me details about her deeper psychosis and I was not the right person to hear that. Moreover, she is actively getting help, but i