#Triggerwarning MY VIVID LIFE and struggles.. idk how i survived
I don't know how much to write, but I could just tell that it's been a very painful life for me, I am only 23. I have experienced multiple forms of trauma, events, and disorders, I found it extremely difficult to have made it here. I think of myself as a kind, good person, and empathetic.
So how do I start? Let me go chronologically...
I had a marked change in my behaviour from about my 8th standard, I was around 13 i guess. by the age of 12 I had realised that there was something different with me, I was inclined towards boys, and I couldn't make sense of it. Before that I do not have any bad memories as such except of being bullied which was tolerable. ( a close cousin had committed suicide in this period), my parents had great fights and verbal arguments, my mother was suicidal and I came home to her crying always or looking at her sad phase, or went school to get bullied. I had my only girlfriend, my best friend of 4 years that I fell in love with, there were issues and it was on and off but it was my only solace.
By the 9th standard I became socially anxious - my hands would sweat, I wouldn't get up from the chair until the end of the school, I would worry that others are look
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#Triggerwarning MY VIVID LIFE and struggles.. idk how i survived
I don't know how much to write, but I could just tell that it's been a very painful life for me, I am only 23. I have experienced multiple forms of trauma, events, and disorders, I found it extremely difficult to have made it here. I think of myself as a kind, good person, and empathetic.
So how do I start? Let me go chronologically...
I had a marked change in my behaviour from about my 8th standard, I was around 13 i guess. by the age of 12 I had realised that there was something different with me, I was inclined towards boys, and I couldn't make sense of it. Before that I do not have any bad memories as such except of being bullied which was tolerable. ( a close cousin had committed suicide in this period), my parents had great fights and verbal arguments, my mother was suicidal and I came home to her crying always or looking at her sad phase, or went school to get bullied. I had my only girlfriend, my best friend of 4 years that I fell in love with, there were issues and it was on and off but it was my only solace.
By the 9th standard I became socially anxious - my hands would sweat, I wouldn't get up from the chair until the end of the school, I would worry that others are look