Fidel Candelaria

@organicmouse983404 · Jan 9, 2026 at 7:15 pm

to go or not to go to a local club night

i used to party every weekend years back, made many friends along the way and felt like i was never alone, there was always someone I knew around. Met some people organizing events/djing but didnt go along the best way with them and now when I need to go and socialise as i felt i lost everyone and everything and get zero social contact otherwise, i am scared shitless. I am anxious to be there alone, I am anxious to see these people I had a weird time with before too. The space is very small and majority people know each other and what would I do when alone when out of the dancefloor?
Clubbing used to be the easiest time for me to befriend people but now it's so much harder. Also when i say clubbing, it's not traditional clubbing, it's small underground electronic music clubs where art kids go hang out and listen to some music. I dont know what happened to me but I got so paranoid over the years about my own perception to the point I can't just go socialise like a normal person. People tend to befriend each other when smoking but I don't smoke and I don't take drugs anymore either. These people from back then were telling our mutuals that I was weird and many people despite me not knowing them, know me. Sometimes they looked at me so mean for no reason. what do i do and how do i become a normal person again, how do i socialise without the need of using dating apps :(