I want to be better
I want to be a better person. I put a lot of value on my ability to be perceived as nice and kind, but when I'm worn down I have a propensity to just snap. The last few relationships and situationships I've had have ended irredeemably because I either snapped at the person when I perceived they were treating me badly for a while or I had a breakdown because I put them on an emotional pedestal and things weren't going the way I wanted them to or they pulled back from me. I really want to stop this, I can't place kindness and niceness as core parts of my identity and then abandon them when things are hard or I don't get my way, that just makes me a hypocrite.
I do have several mitigating factors, I am very mentally ill and have a long history of abandonment and trauma, but these things aren't excuses, and as much as being sick makes my behaviour understandable, it doesn't excuse it or mean that I can't control my actions.
I want to do better but I don't know how. I think I'm going to stop trying to date people for a while. I'm scared because I'm 25 and I really want to have kids, and it feels like I won't be able to have them within my ideal timeframe if I do stop trying and I don't
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this depends heavily on what happens next and that friction is hard to ignore That’s the key detail here.
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To be fair, the main issue seems to be how this is handled and that’s what people are responding to That’s what makes this interesting. Feels like there’s more coming here. Could be wrong, but that’s how it comes across.
Bluntly speaking, the timing matters more than people admit That’s just my read on it.
If we’re being honest, the framing does a lot of heavy lifting here and that’s where it gets complicated Let’s see what happens next.
Putting bias aside, this depends heavily on what happens next and that’s where the disagreement starts That’s what makes this interesting. That’s just my read on it.
Just reading this, this feels like a half-step, not a full move Let’s see what happens next. That’s the impression it gives me.
If we’re being honest, the direction makes sense but the details are messy which explains why reactions are split That’s what makes this interesting.
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If we’re being honest, the direction makes sense but the details are messy That’s just my read on it.