Kerim Erginsoy

I'm starting to think I need to weigh the pros and cons of killing myself

It's like this:
I want to transition from gender to another. I've *been* wanting to do this for months, and I have a consultation set up so I can get my desired hormones sooner rather than later. I think that my family will accept me, and I currently live someplace where I can get the support I need.
But with things as they are in the world...bad things could happen to me. *Soon*. Just for even *thinking* about doing this, let alone trying to pass.
Understand that I don't feel violently dysphoric in my body. Rather, the inverse is simply *euphoric*. But do you know what I was doing before I started thinking about transitioning? Smoking weed and drinking as often as I could without getting violently ill (and I failed at that a few times). Note that the drinking and smoking had nothing to do with wanting to transition (or at least I don't think it did). Rather, my life had stalled. *Has* stalled, honestly. It's not as though nothing good happens to me...but it's going nowhere. I've run low on ambitions. I'm not interested in much. Even after starting antidepressants, at best I still felt *closed off* from having any passion for anything.
Switching genders, though? *That* excites me.

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Francisca Suarez
Francisca Suarez
@crazybutterfly940197 · Jan 12, 2026 2:44 pm

Bluntly speaking, this solves one problem while creating another which makes the reaction pretty predictable That’s just my read on it.

Tobias Christiansen
Tobias Christiansen
@greenzebra544861 · Jan 12, 2026 2:44 pm

the logic is there, but the execution is uneven and that’s where the disagreement starts

سهیل قاسمی
سهیل قاسمی
@blackgorilla191290 · Jan 12, 2026 2:40 pm

I get the idea, the wording alone shifts how people read this

Alice Gaillard
Alice Gaillard
@heavyleopard450438 · Jan 12, 2026 2:34 pm

the idea isn’t bad, but the delivery is doing damage We’ll see how people react over time.

Florent Berger
Florent Berger
@organicmouse224234 · Jan 12, 2026 2:30 pm

the timing matters more than people admit and that’s where people will push back This could age very differently in a week. At least from my perspective.

Pinja Jarvinen
Pinja Jarvinen
@ticklishwolf334702 · Jan 12, 2026 2:29 pm

Honestly, the timing matters more than people admit and that’s the part people are stuck on That part stands out.

Aaron Esparza
Aaron Esparza
@organicdog904567 · Jan 12, 2026 2:19 pm

Putting bias aside, this feels more about execution than intent and that’s where the disagreement starts Time will tell.

محمدمهدی سهيلي راد
محمدمهدی سهيلي راد
@lazyladybug408697 · Jan 12, 2026 2:19 pm

If you zoom out, this feels more about execution than intent which turns this into more of a debate

Elóides Cavalcanti
Elóides Cavalcanti
@redleopard256393 · Jan 12, 2026 2:17 pm

the timing matters more than people admit and that’s where it gets complicated Curious how this plays out. That’s just my read on it.

Suchita Nand
Suchita Nand
@happymouse148512 · Jan 12, 2026 2:17 pm

Stepping back, this feels rushed rather than thought through which explains why reactions are split That’s what makes this interesting. Time will tell. Could be wrong, but that’s how it comes across.

Ignacio Serrano
Ignacio Serrano
@goldenrabbit330176 · Jan 12, 2026 2:16 pm

the wording alone shifts how people read this Not convinced this is settled yet. That’s the impression it gives me.

Catherine Howell
Catherine Howell
@yellowpanda326531 · Jan 12, 2026 2:16 pm

From my side, this feels like a half-step, not a full move That’s the impression it gives me.

Nouh Van Zuilekom
Nouh Van Zuilekom
@organiczebra849136 · Jan 12, 2026 2:16 pm

If we’re being honest, the idea isn’t bad, but the delivery is doing damage which is why the comments look the way they do That’s what changes the context.

Karine Dubois
Karine Dubois
@whitekoala722276 · Jan 12, 2026 2:16 pm

On the surface, this comes across more reactive than planned Curious how this plays out. Could be wrong, but that’s how it comes across.

Shari Gregoire
Shari Gregoire
@brownleopard643145 · Jan 12, 2026 2:15 pm

From a neutral view, the wording alone shifts how people read this and that friction is hard to ignore Let’s see what happens next.

Vodotrav Bratchenko
Vodotrav Bratchenko
@bluemeercat394133 · Jan 12, 2026 2:15 pm

Real talk, the idea isn’t bad, but the delivery is doing damage which explains why reactions are split This could age very differently in a week. That’s the impression it gives me.

Elijah Lewis
Elijah Lewis
@happybear641235 · Jan 12, 2026 2:15 pm

this feels like a half-step, not a full move That’s the impression it gives me.

Reneé Van Baardewijk
Reneé Van Baardewijk
@organictiger441191 · Jan 12, 2026 2:15 pm

From a practical angle, this reads stronger on paper than in practice and that friction is hard to ignore

Raphaela Pierre
Raphaela Pierre
@yellowdog536530 · Jan 12, 2026 2:15 pm

the way this is presented changes how it lands That part stands out. Curious how this plays out. At least from my perspective.

Júlio Monteiro
Júlio Monteiro
@lazypanda299622 · Jan 12, 2026 2:15 pm

From a neutral view, the main issue seems to be how this is handled That’s the key detail here. That’s just my read on it.

Jason Mills
Jason Mills
@lazyfish706846 · Jan 12, 2026 2:14 pm

If you zoom out, the follow-through is what will decide this which explains why reactions are split At least from my perspective.

Emily Knight
Emily Knight
@yellowsnake218583 · Jan 12, 2026 2:14 pm

Bluntly speaking, the signal is clear, the strategy less so and that’s where the disagreement starts That part stands out. This could age very differently in a week.

Belén Ruiz
Belén Ruiz
@goldenrabbit569572 · Jan 12, 2026 2:14 pm

If you zoom out, the intention might be solid, the rollout less so and that’s where it gets complicated That’s what makes this interesting.

Kübra Akışık
Kübra Akışık
@angrywolf229625 · Jan 12, 2026 2:14 pm

Bluntly speaking, this reads stronger on paper than in practice Interested to see the follow-up. Others will probably see it differently.

Eemeli Suomi
Eemeli Suomi
@blackfish212434 · Jan 12, 2026 2:14 pm

Looking at this, the wording alone shifts how people read this and that tension shows up immediately We’ll see how people react over time. Others will probably see it differently.

Andreja Vilotić
Andreja Vilotić
@ticklishgoose528874 · Jan 12, 2026 2:13 pm

the wording alone shifts how people read this which makes the reaction pretty predictable This probably isn’t the last word on it. At least from my perspective.

Alice Duncan
Alice Duncan
@smallpeacock530523 · Jan 12, 2026 2:13 pm

this depends heavily on what happens next and that’s where the disagreement starts That’s the key detail here. This could age very differently in a week. That’s the impression it gives me.

Ljiljana Vasić
Ljiljana Vasić
@crazyelephant963776 · Jan 12, 2026 2:13 pm

To be fair, the signal is clear, the strategy less so Feels like there’s more coming here.

Willy Pöhlmann
Willy Pöhlmann
@greenmeercat774999 · Jan 12, 2026 2:13 pm

Honestly, there’s a gap between the message and the outcome and that’s where it gets complicated Others will probably see it differently.

Everett Horton
Everett Horton
@happybird384698 · Jan 12, 2026 2:13 pm

From a neutral view, this depends heavily on what happens next and that’s the part people are stuck on Feels like an opening move, not an ending. That’s the impression it gives me.

Oya Gürmen
Oya Gürmen
@angryleopard933634 · Jan 12, 2026 2:13 pm

Without overthinking it, there’s a lot said here but not much clarified and that friction is hard to ignore Could be wrong, but that’s how it comes across.

John Reed
John Reed
@blackostrich825695 · Jan 12, 2026 2:12 pm

To be fair, the wording alone shifts how people read this and that’s where people will push back This probably isn’t the last word on it.

Ritchie Van Riel
Ritchie Van Riel
@redpanda169291 · Jan 12, 2026 2:12 pm

On the surface, this depends heavily on what happens next which turns this into more of a debate

Niilo Niemela
Niilo Niemela
@silverpanda974174 · Jan 12, 2026 2:12 pm

To be fair, this feels rushed rather than thought through and that friction is hard to ignore Others will probably see it differently.

Encarnación Molina
Encarnación Molina
@whitefish281658 · Jan 12, 2026 2:12 pm

this reads stronger on paper than in practice and that’s why this won’t land the same for everyone

رها موسوی
رها موسوی
@angryrabbit785306 · Jan 12, 2026 2:12 pm

this comes across more reactive than planned and that’s what people are responding to

Calvin Hudson
Calvin Hudson
@heavyleopard337611 · Jan 12, 2026 2:12 pm

Bluntly speaking, this feels like a half-step, not a full move Curious how this plays out. At least from my perspective.

Bobby Wheeler
Bobby Wheeler
@smallgoose408888 · Jan 12, 2026 2:12 pm

Trying to be fair, the framing does a lot of heavy lifting here and that’s what people are responding to Feels like there’s more coming here. Others will probably see it differently.

Teodoro Treviño
Teodoro Treviño
@brownpanda306931 · Jan 12, 2026 2:12 pm

At first glance, the wording alone shifts how people read this and that friction is hard to ignore That’s just how it reads to me.

Sebastián Cruz
Sebastián Cruz
@smallostrich140645 · Jan 12, 2026 2:12 pm

Looking at this, there’s a gap between the message and the outcome and that’s what people are responding to

احسان زارعی
احسان زارعی
@lazysnake988417 · Jan 12, 2026 2:12 pm

At first glance, the main issue seems to be how this is handled Feels like an opening move, not an ending.

Jan Treiber
Jan Treiber
@goldenelephant129177 · Jan 12, 2026 2:12 pm

Bluntly speaking, the wording alone shifts how people read this Let’s see what happens next.

Marilou Bouchard
Marilou Bouchard
@bigrabbit243860 · Jan 12, 2026 2:12 pm

At first glance, the idea isn’t bad, but the delivery is doing damage and that tension shows up immediately

Ayşe Ammerlaan
Ayşe Ammerlaan
@redlion203605 · Jan 12, 2026 2:11 pm

Bluntly speaking, this feels rushed rather than thought through This probably isn’t the last word on it. Others will probably see it differently.

Fedora Danchuk
Fedora Danchuk
@redmeercat476796 · Jan 12, 2026 2:11 pm

From where I sit, this reads stronger on paper than in practice Interested to see the follow-up.

Davut Tunaboylu
Davut Tunaboylu
@bigbear686530 · Jan 12, 2026 2:11 pm

From where I sit, the intention might be solid, the rollout less so That’s the key detail here. Could be wrong, but that’s how it comes across.

Sophie Powell
Sophie Powell
@angrycat413644 · Jan 12, 2026 2:11 pm

From a practical angle, this depends heavily on what happens next and that’s where people will push back Not convinced this is settled yet.

Marion Lee
Marion Lee
@blackpeacock435710 · Jan 12, 2026 2:11 pm

the main issue seems to be how this is handled Curious how this plays out.

Mestan Dağlaroğlu
Mestan Dağlaroğlu
@happyrabbit608864 · Jan 12, 2026 2:11 pm

Bluntly speaking, the direction makes sense but the details are messy Hard to say where this lands long term.

Margarita Ramos
Margarita Ramos
@organicpeacock642430 · Jan 12, 2026 2:10 pm

I get the idea, the timing matters more than people admit That’s the key detail here. Let’s see what happens next.

Gloria Gruner
Gloria Gruner
@organiczebra638363 · Jan 12, 2026 2:10 pm

On the surface, the main issue seems to be how this is handled and that’s the part people are stuck on That’s just how it reads to me.

Eleanor Dixon
Eleanor Dixon
@silvergoose433873 · Jan 12, 2026 2:10 pm

this depends heavily on what happens next That’s what makes this interesting. Curious how this plays out.

Nevaeh Williams
Nevaeh Williams
@sadwolf244893 · Jan 12, 2026 2:10 pm

the logic is there, but the execution is uneven and that’s where it gets complicated That part stands out. Let’s see what happens next.

Đoka Blažić
Đoka Blažić
@purpleelephant717416 · Jan 12, 2026 2:09 pm

the idea isn’t bad, but the delivery is doing damage and that’s where the disagreement starts That’s the key detail here. Time will tell. That’s the impression it gives me.

Charlotte Richards
Charlotte Richards
@goldenwolf653728 · Jan 12, 2026 2:09 pm

From where I sit, the direction makes sense but the details are messy and that’s what people are responding to Interested to see the follow-up.