I genuinely resent my past self for being right wing and being so gullible
Around 2015 I had my “political awakening” I guess? My roommate and I were just edgelords for the sake of being edgelords. And I remember going down a whole rabbit hole of right wing content throughout college and just being probably an exhausting and unlikeable person.
I wouldn’t say I was racist, but I definitely enjoyed leaving internet strangers with the thought that I was? Like if I’d say anything that got someone to call me a racist I’d just claim that as some kind of victory for myself.
In my early twenties I was at my absolute worst, and became a strong Trump supporter (despite, idiotically, not even being American so at least I never voted for him).
I was obnoxious, I was sexist, I enjoyed getting a rise out of people over things I just didn’t understand or didn’t care to understand. And none of that was ok or acceptable.
There are no excuses here. Between ages 18 and about 23 (now 27) I was just a bad person. And things like what just happened in Minnesota make that honestly hard to live with and move forward with without feeling guilty. The fact I spent time trying to rationalise stuff like J6 and racist police shootings I just genuinely don’t know what the fuck was goin
It’s tough to look back and see how naive we were at certain points, but that self-awareness is important for growth. Acknowledging our past beliefs is the first step towards understanding ourselves better and making sure we don’t fall into the same traps again. Your journey could inspire