I feel like I'm fighting tooth and nail to avoid becoming an incel.
God, it's ridiculously hard to try to do anything other than drawing in my sketchbook all day. I feel like a piece of shit, but everything even slightly productive in the real world just gives me the jitters. If I keep at my life in the way I am, I'm actually going to become not much better than an incel. Maybe, I already am... I'm going through multiple job applications and I'm buying groceries for my parents just so I can see the sun at least once a week. Other than that, I don't really know what to do, honestly. I'm probably not going to know what to do ***after*** I get past this either.
It’s tough when you feel stuck and you're grappling with those negative thoughts. Focusing on your art is a great outlet, but don’t forget to push yourself to connect with others, even if it seems daunting. Small steps can lead to positive change, so keep trying.