Clóvis Farias

@blueduck664816 · Jan 10, 2026 at 8:13 pm

I dont know if it was SA or not

I dont know if my ex SA’d me or not and it’s really affecting me.
I dont think it was, but my mind keeps going back to ‘but what if it was?’, and idk what to do. He’d ask to do stuff, and when I’d say no he’d ask again and I felt bad so I said yes reluctantly, but he didn’t know i felt bad and that I didn’t actually want it, so it isn’t his fault, is it? He also constantly asked me to give him head even though I told him I wasn’t ready to try that yet (I was 15, currently 16 and he was quite a few of my firsts), but he kept asking and once tried to get me to just kiss it and I kept saying no; I never gave him head, but it made me super uncomfortable that he kept asking.
I dont really know how to feel about him, we broke up a while ago and I have a wonderful boyfriend now, but recently it’s just been playing on my mind I guess.