I want to go back to the „feeling nothing” stage
Hi everyone, and my English is still not perfect, I haven’t posted much since my last post added a more than a year ago „I fell in love with terminally ill girl” when I wanted to got something off my chest.
The end of my confession is something I can’t tell anyone, so I’m here…
After many I think I can call it „traumatic” events: cancer, losing my love of my life (she died almost 6 years ago and the history of it is in my post i mentioned earlier), kidnapped and raped by 3 men, assault with a knife and I just lost a spark in my eyes, I really wanted to end it and I tried but unsuccessful and I’m not going to try again, I found the another solution (please don’t take it as advise).
I started to take x@n@x, it fried my brain and my feelings and that was what I was looking for, after a few months I quit, I didn’t feel anything and it was great because I had too much negative emotions and less the good ones, I lived by the rules I’ve made up: work, collage, meeting with friends, learn how to be data analyst - as I’m now (from 6 months), the things my life was getting back on track and then the mother (like a mother for me more than my mother) of dead girl I loved died…
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I (23F) open
the direction makes sense but the details are messy which turns this into more of a debate That’s what makes this interesting. Let’s see what happens next. That’s the impression it gives me.
Real talk, the way this is presented changes how it lands and that friction is hard to ignore That’s what changes the context. At least from my perspective.
From where I sit, this feels like a half-step, not a full move which explains why reactions are split That’s just how it reads to me. Others will probably see it differently.
this comes across more reactive than planned That’s just my read on it.
At first glance, this feels rushed rather than thought through Curious how this plays out.
the way this is presented changes how it lands and that friction is hard to ignore
Honestly, the idea isn’t bad, but the delivery is doing damage and that’s why opinions are all over the place That’s what makes this interesting.
Feeling empty can be really freeing. It's the unadorned truth that allows you to see things more clearly and honestly without distractions or filters. I used to think I had a lot, but it was all just layers of artificial emotions. Now, when I feel nothing, it makes me introspect truly.
At first glance, the direction makes sense but the details are messy At least from my perspective.
Trying to be fair, this depends heavily on what happens next Curious how this plays out. That’s just my read on it.
this depends heavily on what happens next Hard to say where this lands long term. That’s the impression it gives me.
this feels rushed rather than thought through which explains why reactions are split That’s just my read on it.
this feels like a half-step, not a full move which makes the reaction pretty predictable
the main issue seems to be how this is handled This could age very differently in a week. Could be wrong, but that’s how it comes across.
Looking at this, the timing matters more than people admit and that’s the part people are stuck on That part stands out. Feels like there’s more coming here.
From a practical angle, the wording alone shifts how people read this Let’s see what happens next. That’s the impression it gives me.
From a practical angle, this comes across more reactive than planned which makes the reaction pretty predictable That’s just how it reads to me.
Ugh, that's so... depressing. I'm more excited about summer showers than planning a new 2-week vacation just to stay inside. Maybe it’s time for a reality check on how much I actually enjoy the present and what really makes me happy.
the wording alone shifts how people read this That’s what makes this interesting.
Reaction: me irl
From my side, the signal is clear, the strategy less so so the response doesn’t surprise me That’s the impression it gives me.
there’s a lot said here but not much clarified which is why the comments look the way they do This probably isn’t the last word on it. That’s just my read on it.
the wording alone shifts how people read this We’ll see how people react over time. Others will probably see it differently.
From a practical angle, the wording alone shifts how people read this so the response doesn’t surprise me
Reaction: me irl
Stepping back, the logic is there, but the execution is uneven and that’s what people are responding to Time will tell. That’s the impression it gives me.
Not gonna lie, this comes across more reactive than planned and that’s where it gets complicated That’s what changes the context. That’s just my read on it.
this comes across more reactive than planned Time will tell. Others will probably see it differently.
this reads stronger on paper than in practice We’ll see how people react over time. That’s just my read on it.
Reaction: The fastest path to emptiness
there’s a lot said here but not much clarified which is why this is getting picked apart Curious how this plays out. Could be wrong, but that’s how it comes across.
If you zoom out, the wording alone shifts how people read this That’s the key detail here. This could age very differently in a week. That’s the impression it gives me.
Reaction: They must be illiterate or something...
Just reading this, the idea isn’t bad, but the delivery is doing damage
From the outside, the framing does a lot of heavy lifting here Feels like an opening move, not an ending. That’s the impression it gives me.
If we’re being honest, the timing matters more than people admit which explains why reactions are split Could be wrong, but that’s how it comes across.
At this point, the signal is clear, the strategy less so At least from my perspective.
this feels like a half-step, not a full move That’s what changes the context.
this feels like a half-step, not a full move so the response doesn’t surprise me That’s what changes the context. Hard to say where this lands long term.
Reaction: I believed in karma too
Without overthinking it, this feels more about execution than intent so the response doesn’t surprise me Not convinced this is settled yet. That’s the impression it gives me.
From a neutral view, this comes across more reactive than planned That’s the key detail here.
Reaction: me_irl
Looking at this, the direction makes sense but the details are messy Feels like an opening move, not an ending.
Real talk, the logic is there, but the execution is uneven and that’s where the disagreement starts That’s what changes the context. This probably isn’t the last word on it.
From a neutral view, the main issue seems to be how this is handled and that’s the part people are stuck on This could age very differently in a week.
Looking at this, the timing matters more than people admit That’s what makes this interesting. Curious how this plays out.
From my side, the way this is presented changes how it lands That part stands out. Curious how this plays out.
Reaction: I'm recreating 1939
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Reaction: literally 1984
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Reaction: It makes a huge difference.
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Reaction: raised to be stupid taught to be nothing at all
Reaction: Please change, Reddit. Please change.
Not gonna lie, the framing does a lot of heavy lifting here
Reaction: Why am I scared? Probably because one time my grandma got pulled over when I was a kid and she told the cop that her bad driving was because of me and he came to my window. I didnt do anythi
I get the idea, this feels more about execution than intent and that’s what people are responding to That’s just my read on it.