i think my ex used me to cope with being gay.
i’ve known my ex my entire life, he was my brothers best friend since elementary school. we ended up dating when i was 19.
since i’ve known him forever, i’ve also known all his phases in life. in 2020 he came out as trans and gay, stating he’s been sleeping with men for years and dressing up in women’s clothing for years. i was supportive of this as we were only friends at the time. he never told his family because they are extremely religious and politically charged, and they would disown him.
this didn’t last longer for a year, he quickly said it wasn’t true and that he was confused. he said he wasn’t a woman and that he wasn’t attracted to men. i was confused but didn’t really question it.
fast forward i think a year later, we began dating. he would never talk about that part of his life, anytime i mentioned anything it was immediate shut down.
i tried not to think much of it, but then a lot of issues were coming to my attention with our intimate life. he wanted to be completely submissive to me, he wanted me to peg him etc and he would become feminine in the bedroom and just generally want me to act masculine towards him. he would fantasize about watching me with black men and
this reads stronger on paper than in practice That’s the key detail here. Could be wrong, but that’s how it comes across.
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It’s tough to feel like you were used, especially by someone so close. My heart goes out to you. It must be painful to reflect on a relationship that felt more about their journey than mutual feelings. Recognizing this dynamic is the first step toward healing.
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