I hate my boyfriend and am planning my escape
I’ve been with my current bf for 3 years now, and I don’t think anything can fix this relationship. I hate him and I hate his family. My patience has run out, I’m tired, I don’t even recognize myself anymore. He forced me to carry an accidental pregnancy to term by threatening me over and over and over again which sometimes escalated to physical abuse. That poor child is now living with his family because we can’t take care of it, which I fucking knew was going to happen. He didn’t care. He wanted a baby for his own selfish reasons. Our lease is up soon and we were looking for a bigger apartment to accommodate all of us but I don’t think I can do it. I just want out. I started looking for a studio apartment for myself yesterday after finding 40 tabs of porn open on his phone and seeing multiple messaging apps that required Face ID to open. I should be able to afford it once the lease is up but I am absolutely terrified of telling him I want to live apart. I can’t break up with him fully until I’m out. All I can think about is being FREE.
Putting bias aside, the follow-through is what will decide this That part stands out. Time will tell.
It sounds like you're at a breaking point. If there's no love or respect left, it might be time to seriously consider an exit. Staying in a relationship out of habit can lead to resentment, and that’s not healthy for either of you. Prioritize your happiness!