Emilie Roy

@purplegoose684366 · Jan 10, 2026 at 7:56 pm

i (23F) am so so desperate

i want every somewhat attractive guy to like me. i like the attention of a guy asking me out or flirting with me, even if i don't like them. i don't even want a boyfriend, i am opting out of love and relationships it's best for me. i am desperate for my friends too. i like them all so much more than they like me. but if that ever swaps round i get uncomfortable. i try and hide how much i like my friends.
i thought finally getting a boyfriend would make it stop, but even when i was in a relationship, i was desperate for him. it literally felt like i had a crush on him and he didn't like me back but was just being nice. i was desperate to talk to him, to be around him, for him to want to text me and call me etc.
i've been called desperate before. i was introduced to a guy called jack through mutual friends and we all went clubbing together. the guy i had a crush on at the time messaged me saying he was going to the same club. when he arrived i was so excited, and dancing with him. i was all over him. jack whispered to me "stop, you look desperate". the guy i had a crush on started kissing someone else.
this same friendship group, had a houseparty a year later. i was in arthur's bedro