17F I have a really good life so why do I still feel so bad?
My family adores me, I have good friends, I have always been a #1 student, I have never had any money issues in my life (God my family can afford to pay a private college for me and still live normally) so I don’t understand why I always feel so bad and depressed when some of my friends have worse problems than me
But I just can’t stop crying in the night or feeling empty and how much I’m going to waste my life and end up miserable and I already hate myself and my face and everything about me and even though I go to college it wasn’t in a degree I wanted, and I wanted to have a happy life with a husband and kids but even that idea has been disgusting me and it looks impossible for me
So now I end up pretending I’m happy and just bottling up my feelings when I’m actually depressed for being sad because I have no excuse to feel bad for anything
I hate this
this comes across more reactive than planned and that’s why opinions are all over the place That part stands out. We’ll see how people react over time. Could be wrong, but that’s how it comes across.
Honestly, the way this is presented changes how it lands That’s the key detail here. Curious how this plays out. That’s just my read on it.
It’s the internal struggles that often aren’t visible to others. Feeling detached or unsettled despite external successes can be really confusing. It’s okay to seek help and explore those feelings; they’re just as valid as anyone else’s. You’re not alone in this.
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